Orange Furball

The funny side of income tax...

2007-04-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

Trust me to procrastinate on something like this till the very last minute. Tax filing is due end of this month and I have yet to do mine. Problem is twofold cause well I literally have no time to do it and even if I did, the process is absolutely impossible.

So after a brief conversation with an old friend who's been based in Bahrain for his current project (prolly enjoying the camels and hairy men there too), we've come to the conclusion that we're screwed. Not only that, we've also figured out why we hardly hang out anymore too...namely cause we can never make heads or tails of anything when we're within a 5km proximity of one another. Too much bullshit flying through the air for anything constructive to happen there lol...

The scarily funny fact is that...wouldn't it be downright stupidly hillarious if you got fined for NOT filing your tax in time when you didn't even qualify to pay taxes? lol... then again not so funny should it actually happen. Thank god at least I'm in the country and have some sorta control over that. Good luck to Jason in Bahrain tho hahaha....e-filling my ass. Can't even download the damn software cause typically Malaysian, the server can't accommodate the hundreds of thousands of procrastinators like me :D

"When it comes to getting things done, we need fewer architects and more bricklayers." ~ C.C. Barrett

Linkin Park ~ Breaking the Habit

St Patrick's Day

2007-03-16T09:15:00.000+08:00

~~~~
Here comes a cold
Break out the winter clothes
And find a love to call your own
You - enter you
Your cheeks a shade of pink
And the rest of you in powder blue

Who knows what will be
But I'll make you this guarantee

No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

In the dark, on the phone
You tell me the names of your brothers
And your favorite colors
I'm learning you
And when it snows again
We'll take a walk outside
And search the sky
Like children do
I'll say to you

No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
And come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?

And we'll both be safe 'til St. Patrick's Day

We should take a ride tonight around the town
And look around at all the beautiful houses
Something in the way that blue lights on a black night can make you feel more
Everybody, it seems to me, just wants to be
just like you and me

No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
Come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?
And if our always is all that we gave
And we someday take that away

I'll be alright if it was just 'til St. Patrick's Day
~~~~

"Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity." ~ Henry Bromel, Northern Exposure, The Big Kiss, 1991

John Mayer ~ St. Patrick's Day

142 babeh!!

2007-03-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

lol okie this is lame but heck after this past weekends antics between me, jw and yue trying to outdo each other's minesweeper score while waiting for the females in our midst to complete whatever it was they were up to....this totally takes the cake. Eaaaaat that all you minesweeper noobs!

On a side not this is terribly depressing that we get a kick out of outdo-ing each other on a stupid windows game. But the nerd in me says that 142 is 26 seconds faster than my previous record of 168 which equates to a total of approximately 15.5% improvement in speed and a mine per sec clearance rate of a mine per 1.43 seconds.

...

Oh shit, it's really sunk in now. I am that depressingly sad...fuck...

"Women and cats will do as they please and men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea." ~ Robert A. Heinlein

Linkin Park ~ Somewhere I Belong

We always end up going back to the same place...

2007-03-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

So after a hiatus of about a month and a half, ms lainey got the itch again and quite forcefully (in her own subtle way) managed to convince a whole bunch of us to head over to velvet. Never mind that we were supposedly going anyway. We played along...

Have to admit tho, velvet is getting a tad old. There has to be more than this to a Saturday night in kl. I swear it's just cause we're comfortable there and get better service than other places. Sigh.

Jay, Carmen, Lainey and me

Lainey insists on calling this the family pic. Is kinda sweet I suppose *shrug*. Me, Lauren a.k.a advisor to all things related to superstardom, yue @ i now have a permanent ball and chain attached to me, and lainey prior to getting wasted :) family...

Was kinda out of it that night as you can tell from the photos. Was pretty much blank the whole night while lainey went about on her all out assault on clear liquid shots. Wish I had pics of the aftermath at the drainside in fei kai lol...

"I know, I know, you're a feminist and that's adorable, but this is grown up time and I'm the man." ~ Peter Griffin from The Family Guy

Ray LaMontagne ~ Write You a Letter

How shall I articulate my current state of frustration... AARRRGGGGHHHHH!

2007-02-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

So me and yue have been trying to organise a trip up to Koh Samui and Koh Phanggan for the full moon party in April. But lemme just say that getting to this world-reknowned island and travel location is a pain.

First of all, there are no damn direct flights there from KL except for Berjaya Air which flies only twice a week to Koh Samui and departs at 4:30 pm. Hence you effectively lose half a day and have to pay for an extra night's accommodation. Not to mention the damn return flight tickets are RM900+. Crazy!!!!

The only other airline which flies into Koh Samui is Bangkok Airways cause they own the airport and landing rights to Koh Samui. And guess what if we wanted to fly by Bangkok Airways, we would have to fly to Bangkok which is all the way up North, wait 7 hours for the transit flight to Koh Samui which is back down South from Bangkok. Silly right? In the end we end up at Koh Samui at night as well. Refer to above for problems associated with this....*mutter*. Here's the even stupider part, the cheapest flight direct to Koh Samui are from freaking Hong Kong!?!!?!?! RM200 (without airpost tax and fuel surcharge) for return tickets!?!?!? I suppose we could all chill out in Hong Kong and go for the party but come on..seriously...you think we all have so much leave from work is it?

So we decided to look at alternate routes to Koh Samui. That brought another headache. One idea was to take the overnight train from KL to the closest town to the ferry terminal servicing Koh Samui. Yes....overnight. All those high-maintenance girls aren't gonna like this. Actually to be honest I don't really wanna spend a night in a train. What a waste of time. But its significantly cheaper. Then at the town take a 3 hr bus ride or so to the ferry terminal and another 1 1/2 hour ferry ride to Koh Samui. So all in all almost 18 hours worth of travelling. That's if we manage by some miracle to get all the transits at the closest possible time to each arrival/departure. And knowing stupid third world transportation infrastructure, we're bound to be hit by delays or what not (ie cow crossing tracks, grandmother crossing tracks, train crossing grandmother and cows!). So we're pretty screwed.

All I can say is damn you shitty third world country transportation systems!!! You are fucking around with my travel and party logistics!!!

There are not many years left whereby I would be so willing and eager to go for a full out party on the beach with around 7 - 10 thousand backpacers and what not. This is depressing. I've been wanting a proper beach holiday since like god knows 2 years now. This sucks...

"If the world should blow itself up, the last audible voice would be that of an expert saying it can't be done." ~ Peter Ustinov

Marvin Gaye ~ Aint No Mountain High Enough

Karma's a bitch but it can be pretty interesting at times...

2007-02-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

Never really did get my finger around this whole do on to others what you would others on to you thingie. Whole notion of a greater force out there ensuring polar opposites of an equation are kept in check to maintain balance. Does karma really exist or work? Well I'm not a Buddhist so my knowledge on the concept is limited at best. Then again most who know me don't even know I'm Christian let alone catholic. So I'm prolly guessing if I was a Buddhist my depth and breadth of knowledge in terms of religious matters and theological concepts wouldn't be anything to shout about. Let's just say I practice the believe and let it be at that concept. I'm definitely burning in hell...lol

Let's leave the state of purgatory aside. I'm sure I'll get to know it well enough not too many decades down the road. What got me thinking was about how we use all kinds of ways to justify our actions, to explain events. It's like some fact finding mission and guilt ridding quest. In essence it's a finger-pointing exercise. In truth most of it doesn't seem to achieve much. Beyond momentary self gratification for some and more pain for most. Yet we still fall down that path more often than not when we're put under the spotlight. Sorry state of affairs I'd have to admit.

Sometimes I wonder why people laud their recent upcomings over others who have fallen short of the finishing line. Or why revenge is so sweet yet so utterly pointless. I'm sitting here munching prawn crackers (one of the great food blessings of CNY) and just wondering bout how things haven't really changed much from a year ago. *shrug* Doesn't really bother me much but it's nice to sit back and actually calmly ponder it and see it from all new angles. I don't feel much about it all. In fact kinda find it hard to pin an emotion of it. Feel like Data from StarTrek or something. Cold robotic shell. Devoid of human emotions.

Still don't get it. Karma. You really there? Ah heck I've got bigger fish to fry in the coming months then spend more time on silly lil things like this. I've got so much more mischief to get up to before I pay a visit to mr two horns and pointy tail...

"Nothing brings people together more than mutual hatred." ~ Henry Rollins

Yellowcard ~ One Year, Six Months

X Marks...nothin at all!

2007-01-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

Okie so I was just browsing through some blogs and lo and behold, I found maps of good ol London from Adeline's blog! The rest is graphically depicted and elaborated accordingly...

Btw my colleague Derek has been pretty bored and has been frequenting the office a lot recently, despite not being an official EY employee again (long story...). So he's back to his old mischief with my my other colleague Kin Han. So if ya guys see weird ass msn nicks and stuff of mine during work hours, it is solely due to these 2 bums having absolutely nothing better to do. A pretty good dysfunctional Bonny and Clyde they make... *mutter*

"Genius may have its limitations, but stupidity is not thus handicapped." ~ Elbert Hubbard

Gavin Degraw ~ Chariot

After the dust has settled, realism sets in

2007-01-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

Okie so after all the partying done pre and post 2007 New Year’s Day, we have to come back to reality. Work’s picking up again. The friends from London have all departed. Everyone’s getting back to the 9 to “whenever the boss feels like letting you go home” routine (thankfully so far its been 5.30+ or so for me for the past week ~ i.e. half-day in Shin Ee’s terms).

As far as New Year’s resolutions go, the smoking ban was lifted pretty much 72 hours after inception. Talk about major failure, far short of the 6 months it lasted the last time around. Maybe it’s true as I predicted that I’d only quit when I have kids or I’m at pre-cancer stage (touchwood) or when I get together with some chick like my ex who totally wants me to quit.

Now time to set some realistic goals and see them through. First on the list has definitely gotta be save more. Plastic bill skyrocketed over the past month :S. Drinks are becoming increasingly expensive in KL. A very worrying trend considering the lifestyle we all lead at the moment. Actually come to think of it, makes more sense to go out less often and not contribute so much of our hard earned *scoff* salary to velvet’s operations. That being said tables are already booked for this Saturday. *shrug*

Btw, I believe I’m turning into a tech junkie. The iPhone is like digital sex. I want…

"Success usually comes to those who are too busy to be looking for it." ~ Henry David Thoreau

Collective Soul ~ Shine

48 hours and counting

2007-01-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

So it's been 2 days since I put down the cancer stick. Amazingly haven't even reached for a single one since then. Prolly cause of the runny nose but then again I didn't even get an itch for it. The last time I put it down it lasted 6 months. Let's see how long this run goes for. Aiming for somewhere closer to a year this time...

Everyone has new year resolutions and stuff. I kinda didn't bother with all that. It's still all the same stuff. Just well, this time I have my priorities sorted thats all. Off to bed, it's another day at the office tomm...gnites.

"No matter how hard you work to bring yourself up, there's someone out there working just as hard, to put you down..." ~ Dr. Dre

James Blunt ~ Tears and Rain

Weclome 2007!

2007-01-01T17:56:00.000+08:00

It seems as if the year went by just so fast. All the things that happened with it and not. 2006 was by far one of the most eventful years for so many reasons and I find it hard to find anyother year prior to this that taught me more about myself, my friends and the ones I cared for. It just passed by way too fast and now we're already in 2007. So here's to the new year and for a year just as good or better than the last...

NYE celebrations tho were another matter totally. Definitely beat 2006 NYE celebrations eventhough my book-a-suite and party like crazy plan with everybody got derailed by a reluctant barry. *mutter* But then again in hindsight that might have been a good thing. Here's a recap of last night.

8:00 pm :: Bird's open house party starts. Complete with full set of catered dishes and drinks and a truck of durian outside.

8:05 pm :: Shakes Bird's dad's hand and almost gets mine snapped into two. Makes mental note...don't mess with Bird's dad. lol

8:30 pm :: Watches as uncles and aunties attack the durian guy and cart off durian to their respective tables...totting along bottles of Cordon Bleu and red wine. Notices how everyone at our table politely refuses attempts at passing durian to our side.

9:00 pm :: Decides to heck it and get it over with it and calls ex to set up coffee to catch up and smooth things over once and for all. Its a new year after all right? Said ex is flying to China soon and may not get a chance to meet up. Hmm blessing in disguise?

10:15 pm :: Group decides to meet up with the rest at Cynna @ heritage row. Am quite surprised that KL wasn't so jammed despite the hordes of mat rempits and 5 year old cyclists clogging up 2 or 3 entire lanes to themselves.

10:45 pm :: Struggles with the anal retentive door people at Cynna who obviously don't have a clue in their heads on how to manage a door front. Everyone makes a mental note to disregard crappy place for rest of 2007. Bunch of pretentious snobs... We should have stuck with Velvet guys.

12:00 am :: Bottles arrive and everyone barely has the chance to get a proper drink in hand before the lousiest attempt at a countdown is initiated by the prepubescant dj. We made more noise doing the china-man yam seng to the countdown. Which reminds me, apologies to the fine ladies who had to endure the brief moment of cina-ness lol. We blame the presence of Faizal our chinaman wannabe malayman. :P

12:05 am :: Swooping in for random nye pecks. Was bitterly disappointed inside when realised there weren't any mistletoe around. *mutter*

12:45 am :: Decides its time to go save Ms Lim from the hordes of people she barely knows. Bid adieu to Cynna and moves over to Shang room 18## a.k.a TJ's NYE/Bday Bash. Caryn immediately decides to take my head off within first sight of me for various reasons. Am sorry darling but well....honestly....as shit as Cynna was as a place. At least I knew most of the people there.

1:00 am :: Tired and cranky cause well, tiny suite and lots of drunk unknowns plus acrid smell of weed did not mix well with Justin under the weather. Heads back down to private room (courtesy of Suef darling).

1:30 am :: Me, Lim, Suef, Bird and Kong decide that staying in our room would be a better idea than at the party upstairs. End up talking crap and scrutinizing Shang's ridiculous room service prices. Opens RM16 can of sprite as mixer for the grey goose.

2:00 am :: Tin-chan is starving and suggests that we go for beef balls or lo shi fun. Everyone agrees. No one makes a move from their lazy butts.

3:30 am :: We finally get going to Jln Silang. Justin has not been there when sober. Hence driving there last night was more of a road trip. After 20 minutes we give up and head over to Jln Alor instead for the beef balls. Takes only 5 minutes for that instead.

4:00 am :: Justin wants to kill his passengers who are about one of the most irritating drunks in the world. But I love them dearly. Still should kill them tho.

4:30 am :: We drop Kong off with his brother and head back to our room at Shang. I decide to call it a night and take the longest hot shower ever. As usual I get the floor and proceed to freeze my ass off the bed. Some Hugh Hefner I turned out to be. 3 girls and me on the floor and they on the combined double beds. Pffft....but heck was just them. lol

5:00 am :: Have no idea which random guy Suef has brought into the room who wanted to take a shower? Was just getting comfortable on my floor.. ZZZzzz

10:00 am :: Rush down for breakfast. Checks out. Realises I'm down with a leaky nose. Great start to 2007...

"Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance." ~ Will Durant

Guster ~ Window

On the first day of Christmas...

2006-12-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

I got too drunk to go to church...I'm definitely not on god's good list now =(

Christmas quotes:

“Maybe we shouldn’t go for mass tonight. It’s Christmas and with all these terrorists running about….you don’t wanna tempt fate.” ~ Dad

I swear I was so surprised he didn’t burst into flames when he stepped into church.

“Justin Timber ‘Tasik’!” ~ Lainey and Lauren

I should stay closer to saner people.

“Yeah Baby!” ~ Justin Timber ‘Tasik’

My only contribution to the karaoke session

“This is my sister. She is #4 prostitute in whole of Kazakhstan” ~ Borat

Can’t believed we started watching Borat after listening to Christmas carols the whole night

“Eh, can you help me toast my ‘walnuts’?” ~ Yoong Yue

I don’t think I wanna elaborate any further on this one…

“Is the Christmas ham fattening?” ~ Lainey

Nope. Absolutely no calories in that. Seriously. As lean as the celery sticks you chewed on the whole night.

“That is the smell of RM1,200 of ham” Lauren

Thank god I didn’t get into yue’s car

No quotes from the party over at Tropicana. Can’t possibly articulate the chaos that was from 1 – 5am. Suffice to say that I will always remember how Barry tried to be a penguin, Faizal mimicking Travolta, Yu Jin getting it down with the Village People and all that karaoke action…lol

Now we wait for new year’s eve…

"A man who fears nothing loves nothing, and when you love nothing, what joy is there in your life?" ~ Sean Connery from First Knight

James Brown ~ Sex Machine (in honour of the godfather of soul...)

Jay's Birthday

2006-12-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

Seems like December is turning into quite an eventful month, and this is even before Christmas and New Year's Eve. Should be interesting...

Anyways, Jay turned a year older last Wednesday and we were at Bodega to celebrate. Didn't suppose anyone was up to going to Velvet on a work night so it was a more chilled out night instead.

Birthday boy Jay flanked by Lauren and Elaine

Lauren waves to get the cameraman's attention while Jay and Julie are oblivious to my attempts at candid shots (man I love messing around with yy's SLR)

Sarah and a rose from god knows where...

Lainey and Julie, inseparable most of the times from what I noticed

Sze Yoong and Carmen

My man-whore YY pimping it up and earning his keep. Still owes me my cut for this week's work...man I'm gonna have to exercise my pimp hand soon. My money's due!

Me and Lainey

So yeah, pretty alright night though I left early on. Sigh work can be such a bummer at times...

"Become like bubbles in a glass of champagne, floating upward in unexpected, elegant fluid ways." ~ John Maeda

Bryan Adams ~ Everything I Do

EY Annual Dinner & Dance 2006

2006-12-13T19:49:00.000+08:00

So 1,000+ EY staff around KL jammed up Sultan Ismail and the entrance to Shang on last Friday, 8th Dec. Much to the annoyance of YY who wanted to get home lol. Sorry bro. Blame the firm not me. In any case, we managed to get there by 8:30 even though the event was supposed to start at 8. 30 minutes late not too bad what right? My bad for leaving my ticket at home and we had to backtrack to get it. Suef was greatly pleased she could arrive expectedly late again....pffft.

It was kinda strange to see everyone there as we're usually all over the place at different clients and what not. Was great to just hang out with the guys and girls and not talk about work. Entertainment was a lil off but we all had fun in our own ways lol...Heck and there were free flow drinks so that kept everyone smilling.

Top L-R:Jess, Kin Han, Mel, Gerri, Carol aka Boss...no i'm serious that's my dept.'s head partner, Voon, Sheena. Bottom L-R: Andrea, Suef, me, So Nia (basically all the Business Advisory associates and senior associates)

L-R:Katherine, me, Mel posing in frt of Kin Han, Andrea, Ming Chong, Siew Han, Ka Vee who looks serious but is actually near piss drunk, Jess

For some reason our department's two tables were very vocal throughout the night. Was quite amusing. Prolly not so much to the people we bumped into but heck we just told them we were from Audit...lol

"The most important thing I have learned over the years is the difference between taking one's work seriously and taking one's self seriously. The first is imperative, and the second disastrous." ~ M. Fontey

John Mayer ~ Covered in Rain

Awww My Boy's All Grown Up...

2006-12-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

Happy 5th Birthday Twitch! Lol...we all need pets so that we can take silly photos of them when they obviously rather not. I have claw marks and teeth punctures to testify to that...all in the name of silly pics. So here are pics of my fat orange furball in Christmassy mood.

Curiosity killed the cat...or at least got him caught on camera

Take 1...cat tries to run...

Take 2...cat is really pissed off and has already drawn blood from J's hand...will not dare bite mom tho...

Take 3...finally wisens up that we're not gonna let him go till he sits still for 3 secs...

"Age is no guarantee of maturity." ~ Lawana Blackwell

George Michael ~ Last Christmas

This is kinda true...

2006-12-04T18:04:00.000+08:00

"The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts." ~ Bertrand Russell

Innuendo ~ Nanti

Justin is Screwed...

2006-12-01T11:17:00.000+08:00

Situation: Not adequately prepared for exam on Sunday.

Estimated Time to "Death-by-Exam": 40 hours (give or take variance of 3 hours)

Problem Faced: Subjective self evaluation of only being 50% ready for paper. Hence Expected Score = 50%.

Additional Note #1: Take into account that total score is 240. And that total time allocated is 6 hours.

Evaluation #1: Will have exactly 1.5 minutes per question (360 questions / 240 mins = 1.5 min/q).

Additional Note#2: Take into account that Guaranteed pass rate = 70%. Probability of passing given achieved score is between 60%-69% = 70%. Pr(passing | achieved score is between 50%-59%) = 40%. Pr(passing | achieved score is < 50%) = 5%.

Evaluation #2: Given that E(Score) = 50%, Pr(Justin passing) = 40% (die...).

Additional Note#3: Take into account that there is a probability not considered in previous data that questions are MCQ with 4 choices per question. Wrong guesses are not point deductible.

Evalutaion #3: No. of questions likely to be unanswered = (0.5)(240) = 120questions. Pr(of guessing correctly) = 1 / 4 = 0.25 = 25%. New E(score) = 50% + [ (0.25)(120) / 240 ] = 50% + [ 30 / 240 ] = 50% + 12.5% = 62.5%. Given that new E(score) = 62.5%, revised Pr(Justin passing) = 70%.

Additional Note #4: Take into account that Justin overly evaluates personal abilities and that final results are biased upwards in a range of 10-15%.

Evaluation #4: Pr(Justin passing) = [ (70%-15%)+(70%-10%) ] / 2 = 115% / 2 = 57.5% .

Question: Given that global passing rates have averaged 30% (however statiscal calculation did not exclude candidates that registered and did not sit for the paper), what is the chance that Justin will pass?

Conclusion: Let us assume that if we included that true passing rate for candidates who sit for the paper is adjustd upwards by 10% to 40%. We do realise that passing rate is not a nominal figure as given above but rather on a bell curve. We therefore would like to use subjective evaluation combined with objective figures that it's a flip-of-the-coin situation and it is equally likely for Justin to pass or fail. We also note that in all honesty that given he spent 15 minutes blogging about this and not furthering studying efforts, coin is slightly biased to failling now. Justin is screwed...

"Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are." ~ Malcolm Forbes

Third Eye Blind ~ Jumper

We All Love Making Lists We Never Get Around To Finishing...

2006-11-29T05:20:00.000+08:00

At some point in my life I’d like to:

Go on some fabulous beach holiday in the Caribbean, sit on a deckchair and have some large breasted native woman in a grass skirt serve me cocktails with lil umbrellas in them.
Play in the World Poker Championships and not have to worry bout losing the $10,000 USD entry. Of course I’d rather make it to the final table and get killed there but come on, I’d like to be sliggggggghtly more realistic.
Get that freaking number plate I’ve always wanted JY 7 (It’s mine! And jay better stop claiming its his lol…) and be able to put it on a decent car (i.e. something made out of carbon/aluminium and drinks gas like Barry downs whisky and goes 0-100 in a blink of an eye).
Stand in the centre of the pitch at the Bernabeu (so far the closest I’ve been is on the edge of the 2^nd level stands) or the San Siro and prance around like a lil kid with a ball.
Own my own bar. A nice one. Like a wine/cigar bar of sorts where us guys can always go chill and have a decent meal and not have to shout to be heard even though we’re less than a foot apart. Hmmm any ideas on what to call the place?
Have a reunion with old friends when we’re all 30 plus/married/divorced/moving up the career ladder/fleeing from the authorities. To catch up and rekindle old moments. The MC highschool guys would meet up in KL somewhere. The Taylor’s guys at Mee Yoke in Subang (is the damn place still open?). The
LSE peeps would head back to London to the Three Tuns or the Library courtyard. Man I kinda miss everybody now that everyone’s literally all over the world.
Go back to Tkd training. It’s been such a long while since I’ve been back and watching these C-grade martial arts flicks are kinda prompting me to look for my good ol Master Lau once again. Actually wonder if his dad, the grandmaster’s still around…should be…still the fittest/sharpest 70+ yr old I’ve ever known.
To have a chalet on one of the nicer/quieter ski slopes on the Swiss Alps. Man I miss going down with no control at all on a blue slope wondering if I’m going to crash into some 5 yr old French kid at the bottom of the piste. Lol
Quit smoking. Well prolly will happen when I have kids or when I can’t see my ribs anymore in an x-ray, but I’d guess that’d be a lil too late. :P
Have a loving wife, 2.5 kids, 2 dogs (one of which I’d name dogdog despite any memories that are associated with the name cause it is genuinely a damn cute name for a puppy), a cat and live faaaaaar away from the in-laws. lol

"Dream as if you'll live forever, and live as if you'll die tomorrow." ~ James Dean

Ray LaMontagne ~ Hold You In My Arms

Deck the hall with bling and hos!

2006-11-27T17:29:00.000+08:00

When I was young I always though Santa was this sweet old guy with a long fluffy white beard and weight issues...but well overall such a nice guy that he'll fly around the world with Rudolph and the other reindeers and drop pressies for all the good kids. Then I stopped receiving the pressies I wished for at about 3 years old. Kept getting stuff I didn't really want. Then about 6 I found out Santa wasn't real. Then at about age 23, 1 month and 20 days....I decided...FUCK SANTA.

We need new management in place. Have you been naughty or nice? Screw that. I'm taking over the north pole and here's a list of things we need immediate rectification.

Santa's ride is so uncool. We need to pimp it up a lil. Add some bling, some spinners, some chrome, some funky paintjob and new upholstery. Heck I'm definitely not gonna wanna ride in some dumbass sleigh with no sunroof, cupholders, ps3, 10 inch plasmas and a rocking sound system. And screw the reindeers. I want a supercharged engine which does 0-100 in 0.1 secs (hey I gotta get around the world to all the parties in time right?). And I figured I know what the upholstery's gonna be like....reindeer hide.
The lil elves are being exploited by damn Santa. And besides they work too slowly and I can't be arsed to deal with the Elf Union. So fuck it, all toys are gonna be made in China. At least they're willing to work for below the minimum wage!
Santarinas are in desperate need of a new wardrobe. I'm signing up Victoria's Secret as our new "uniform" sponsor and provider. Rufina (btw rufie you so have such a christmas-sy name) has "volunteered" to oversee the revamp of the Santarina department as head Santarina. Btw I did find a lil skimpy red number for you lol *wink*
Policy changes are also to take into account that this new Santa is lactose intolerant and not exactly too partial to cookies. So waiting for me at every point of visit should be Cristal and beluga caviar with nice wafers. Failure to do so would well, piss this Santa off. And this Santa aint "nice"...
Being nice is fine and stuff. But come on, we all know that being naughty is "oh-so-nice"...

Now go forth people of the world. Christmas is just around the corner. Go get your supply of mistletoe and snog along. There's a new Santa around....Santa-J!

"You smell good. Wanna smell me?" ~ Johnny Bravo

P Diddy feat. Nicole Scherzinger ~ Come to Me

3 Step Rule to Getting Married and Having A Baby Girl

2006-11-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

Okie so this is getting a lil weird and freaky. After not hearing from her since I left London she messages me and we get in touch again and the very first thing she tells me is that she’s married and is expecting a baby girl in January. And I must be one of the last to find out about this too.

Oh yeah okie, so I skipped ahead past the typical pleasantries of how are you doing? What have you been up to? Yada yada yada. This makes it 2 now which have somehow ended up married and expecting within 4 years of well the end of a “relationship”- that’s if you can even call it that which I don’t consider it to be. 1^st one was when I was 15 and even though it was for about a year on-and-off, I seriously doubt you can consider anything at that age a substantial relationship. More of like a first foray into some new unknown territory and getting your feet wet. Things in between then and #2 were more of short term encounters of the other kind. Then again come to think of it #2 was pretty much like that. Hmmm, but I guess there was more of an impact in #2 compared to others prior hence a spot on the list. Lol MW please don’t kick my ass if you should stumble upon this lil ol blog of mine. Honestly speaking, think #3 was about the only proper (lol proper prolly isn’t the most accurate definition tho) relationship, which ended oh sometime last April.

It’s a lil strange. I mean I’m honestly happy for them (albeit a lil freaked by the occurrence of it all) and I wish them the best sincerely. Still feels a lil strange to me somewhat. If the last one gets married and expects a baby girl (oh yeah I really don’t know why it’s been a girl for both of them, must be just a matter of coincidence) within the next 4 years that would make it 3 out of 3. And if that does happen here’s what I have to say bout that:

3 Step Rule for a Lady if she wants to get married and have a baby girl:

Step #1: Go out/hook up with Justin for a short period or any period of time to be honest and be considered, in a very loose interpretation, as being in a relationship.

Step #2: Dump Justin’s ass and go see someone else almost immediately.

Step #3: Wait 3 – 4 years and you should be happily married and full on preggo with a baby girl.

So here’s the deal. In 3 – 4 years time if it turns out to be a strike out, ie 3/3 ie 100% success rate on my hypothesis. I’ll be willing to date any girl for a week or less just so you can put this into practice and meet the guy you wanna marry and father your first daughter. Generosity at its ironic/cynical best…

Btw if you’re reading this MJ and MW ya know I’m kidding and everything’s cool. And it’s definitely coincidental more than anything else. Wish you two all the best with the new family.

MJ> Have not heard from you in years and have no idea what’s going on. Drop me a line one of these days. Do coffee or something?

MW> If you do make that trip down to Singapore we should try and catch up then. Or else I guess I’ll see ya when I get back to London k? And bring the lil rugrat along so I can see if she’s just like mommy =)

"Enjoy your own life without comparing it with that of another." ~ Marquis de Condorcet

Train ~ Drops on Jupiter

Why Bond's a Pussy...and yet not...

2006-11-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

Bond. James "Pussy" Bond. Here's the gist of things. My entire makeup of Bond has always been based on childhood viewings of Sean Connery playing the perfect Bond with all these cool gadgets and stuff and always getting the babes. Everyone else after that has been a far second, especially George Lazenby (bet ya didn't know there was a Bond with this idiot too huh). I've yet to see the new Bond movie so I'll save comments on Mr. Craig for later.

But here's what I think of Bond...he's a pussy. Everyone thinks his whole Martini act is uber cool but come on, after hitting the legal drinking age and countless head in the toilet bowl scenes, anyone who knows anything bout drinks would know that a Martini (be it a Dirty, Vodka or even Lychee) is usually served stirred. And you know why? Cause if you stir it, it maintains the consistency of the mixture of drinks and most importantly, it doesn't freaking break the ice and dilutes the drink. So when it's shaken not stirred, you're getting a pussified version of a drink. Might as well ask the bartender to add ice water to the drink and serve it up. You'd sorta get the same thing. Hence why all you idiots taking your martinis shaken are prolly being laughed at by everyone else at the barside, including the bartender.

That being said, Bond is everything but a pussy. I mean seriously, you've got the cars, the kickass gadgets, a license to beat the shit outta anyone and still look good doing it. Of course you can't forget the women and that Bond is seemingly immune to all known sexually transmitted diseases and still manages to get the next chick with the current chick still on his other hand. The heck, I wanna be Bond....pussy martinis or not.

"Yes, madam, I am drunk. But in the morning I will be sober and you will still be ugly." ~ Winston Churchill

Madonna ~ Die Another Day

Birthday month comes to a close...

2006-10-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

October has always proved to be an expensive month. Solely because of birthdays. Now I'm wondering why there are so many people born in October. I mean was there any significance about January? Why were everyone's parents hooking up then...or are we all premature babies because of Valentine's night? Hmmm never really thought too much about it but seems that one out of every 5 new friends I meet or know seems to be an October baby, myself included.

Anyways today's my coffee buddy's big day and we're out to get her drunk after a nice dinner. Sigh I'm guessing it's gonna be another long night but tonight should prove pretty fun. 3 tables at Velvet plus the other fellars so that would make it 5. Suef's gonna be flamable by the time it hits 12 and I'll be toasting to a hermit-like November month. It's time to get down to some serious work again...

"You don't slow down because you get old; you get old because you slow down." ~ Unknown

Ludacris ~ Move Bitch

Pitter Patter

2006-10-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

Rainy season is back and it's so gloomy. I wake up and it's all wet outside, dark and gloomy. I leave office and it's the same. Hmmm in a sorta strange way it feels like I'm back in London again...minus the human diversity, old buildings and black cabs. Still feels like god's taking a leak on ya every now and then tho lol...

"There is no such thing as an insignificant enemy." ~ French proverb

Coldplay ~ Shiver

Less Muscle Usage = Good

2006-10-24T16:46:00.000+08:00

This one just cracks me up...

"The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense." ~ Tom Clancy

Duncan Sheik ~ Barely Breathing

Purgatory is but a step away...

2006-10-22T16:48:00.000+08:00

A list of thing’s I have noticed over the past 3 months:

I’m a closet menthol smoker. I supposedly only smoke lights but whenever I have the chance (which equates to me not dishing out cash for unless forced to) I will smoke menthols instead. That’s fine with me…
That the girls prancing around the office lobby in tight red dresses after 6pm are actually Marlboro ciggie girls working at Philip Morris. Well eye candy is always appreciated I guess...
The loud dance music that I hear in the office lobby after 6pm is not coming from some secret club on some obscure floor where I don’t have access to and where those girls in red are going to/coming from but rather is from the aunties all at their exercise classes at Philip Wain. Bummer...
The chak-fan guy in the van outside my building at lunch time is actually a vegetarian only store and that the char siew I’ve been buying is actually tofu! Damn, I thought it was pretty good char siew too…feel cheated. Want meat...
Cynna is so not my scene. Not into house/garage kinda music and the crowd, well I don’t know but it aint someplace I’m comfortable at. Never really liked heritage row anyway…
Yoong Yue has tonnes of hot friends. Yoong Yue is officially my new best friend lol…oh plus he hardly drinks and can drive us all back safely anytime of the day.
I can understand now why people wanna modify their cars into obscenely gross moving things on the road cause I drive a proper Jap car now. I wanna be a dumbass “racer” boy with loud boom boom speakers and stupid bodykits…lol well okie it was just a 5 minute notion I won’t entertain…maybe *shrug*
You can actually see the curvature of boobies in a female chest x-ray. Lol WHAT? It’s not like I see a female chest x-ray everyday yeah! :P *shall not mention names*
Going to Alexis every Sunday for brunch/tea is becoming an expensive habit to maintain and my bank account is suffering...

Which brings me to my last finding...
I am increasingly becoming more random than ever and it's starting to worry me. I didn't mind being predictable last time and I still don't mind being predictable now but heck what's up with all the randomness and uncertainty now. Only one thing's certain in what's going on with me at the moment and it's the direction…but everything else is floating around colliding with whatever it comes across with.

"The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn." ~ David Russell

Guster ~ Mona Lisa

Are you an owl or a lark?

2006-10-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

Dear All,

I say screw the larks. Early bird gets the worm? My god seriously lil chirpy birds in the morning are about the first thing to induce ppl to bring out their shotguns and declare open season on their feathered asses. Okie fine, I'm being a cranky munky at the moment. It's 12am and I just woke up. Monday morning in the office is going to be testing alright *mutter*. Sigh... note to self: Try not to sleep so early even though you're pooped.

Anyways, I've come to the conclusion that I'm increasingly becoming temperamental and random thought processes seem to be a norm now. Like for one I have damn teriyaki boys blaring fast and furious (which i personally feel is one of the reasons why white people think we asian ppl are weird...) instead of chilling out to something from john mayer or dmb. Makes me wanna spend all my savings and go crazy on my civic...get a new bodykit, undercarriage neon lights, 17" alloy sport rims with bling bling spinners....heck let's even get hydraulics and pimp it a lil *bounce bounce*. On a side note: Mother nature is sick and sadistic...it's like guaranteed to rain a couple hours after you've just washed and waxed your car *shakes fist* Man and the malaysian govt goes on and on bout how cloud seeding isn't really helping the haze situation that much and torrential rain is required. Dudes, just go wash all the cars everyday. Mother nature will do the rest...

Sigh alrights I should sign off and do something productive cause my mind's starting to stray and I'm contemplating suicide by blueberry cheesecake...

Regards,

Chuggles the random chuggler.

"I perform under pleasure, not under pressure" ~ Jamie M lol (sorry couldn't resist dear *wink*...)

Teriyaki Boys ~ Fast & Furiiiiiiouuuuuuoooooo

Justin Goes for Korean BBQ with Friends, Hilarity Ensues...

2006-10-11T19:24:00.000+08:00

*Note* All names have been EMPHASIZED to ensure humiliation is properly accorded. You may hold me liable for this post if you are so affected (namely you D lol) but to be honest, this is some classic stuff... =P

Doreen: I can’t remember when was the last time I had Korean. Must have been ages ago.

Seng: Just stick with the fried beef. Its safe.

Waiter: Reeeddi order alreeeeddi?

Justin: You guys go ahead. I’ll eat anything.

Doreen: We’re having the bbq thingie aren’t we?

Seng: Urm it IS a barbeque place…would make some kinda sense to have something of the sort…

Doreen: *shoots death stares at soon to be ex-boyfriend* Alrights, fried beef…Urm can we have the bukake?

Waiter: *looks confused* *wants to say something* Urm…bulgogi issit?

Justin and Seng: *too busy laughing and tearing up*

Doreen: What????

I’ll leave the rest of the story for fear of my own safety and out of sheer pity. But for those of ya who don’t know what bukake is….click here. And for clarification, when I say I’d eat anything….I was wrong. I’d stay faaaaaaaar away from that.

"The trouble with being punctual is that nobody's there to appreciate it." ~ Franklin P. Jones

Paula Cole ~ I Don't Wanna Wait

12 hrs later and still failling a breath test...

2006-10-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

Few lessons to take note of in 364 days time:

When Shin Ee asks you to sit down and if you're alright, she's not genuinely concerned. She's just trying to get you cornered so she can down whisky with you too.
When an old friend from London says "Hey it's your birthday! I'm gonna buy you a drink! Whaddya want?", never reply with "Be a friend and get me a coke." Results in double shots of flaming sambucas instead.
When an old friend from London says "Hey it's your birthday! I'm gonna buy you a drink! Whaddya want?", never ever reply with "MAHAI I just had fucking sambuca shots with Min Yow lar bitch!". Results in tequila shots instead.
Must cut down from jumping from one table to another table to another table in attempt to run away from previous tables cause in the end...all tables are out to do the same to you. Cept Razlan's and Yoong Yue's...phew...
Saying that you are out of cash to buy more bottles isn't a good enough excuse (which is true regardless of any ocassion but my mind wasn't running on all cylinders by 2am) to avoid drinking when there are no more alkie on the table. People just love plastic...but they love getting birthday boys plastered even more...
Running out of the club to chill with fine ladies who are genuinely looking after you only works for 30 minutes before the rest of the crew figure it out that you're not within 2 feet of something consumable which is combustible/flammable...(either through oral or nasal tracks depending on how the idiot pours it down on you)

but most importantly..you realise beyond all the haze and smoke and loud music, that each birthday's never the same. The people who are there, the places, the time, the significance. Each one is as different as snowflakes are. You take a lil part of it with you and you lock it up in a neat lil box in your head and you move on with your life, hardly ever thinking about it till friend's converse bout old times or when it's time for next year's celebration.

This year's was definitely a vastly different one...on prolly very much more serious levels. But it kinda puts everything into perspective. Or rather it kinda gives direction. At least I know where to go from here...

*Edit Note* Thank god there was only a single camera around and in the hands of a non camera whore...

"Experience is what we get when we do not get what we want." ~ Enio Carvalho

Michael Buble ~ I Wanna Go Home

A year ago...

2006-10-07T15:50:00.000+08:00

About a year ago and as usual, at Alexis...

No big fanfare or drunken escapades on the 22nd...let's see what happens tonight instead lol.

22nd year of this boy's life was pretty eventful lots of new experiences, some amazing, some completely off the rails and some you'd rather forget. Wonder how the 23rd years gonna turn out like...hmmm....

"I wake up and I piss excellence!" ~ Ricky from Talladega Nights

Justin Timberlake ~ Sexy Back

Amaran Oleh Kerajaan Malaysia: Merokok Membahayakan Kesihatan...

2006-09-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

Ever since I knew what a cigarette was I've been absolutely against that foul smelling cancer stick. I mean why would anyone of any sane mind wrap dried up, chemical filled grass with paper and inhale the fumes from it when lit? Makes absolutely no sense does it? I convinced myself that it was the stuff of delinquent juveniles bound for a life of crime and sin. Someone in the same league as the creators of Barney “the-fucked-up-purple-twat”. It's the devil's work I tell you!

Then I grew up. I went to uni. I hung out with more people. I shed the confines of a sheltered view on life and along the way also found that consumption of excessive amounts of alchohol (Haleluja!) can be fun…given the right circumstances (ie. watching Chris give Dom a lapdance on a sofa for a 50 pound cheque). Then for some reason I picked up a ciggie and lit it and one thing lead to another…

Every now and then I meet people from my childhood and past who are absolutely shocked that I smoke. Justin? Smoking? Nooooooo….only bad kids do that. Seriously. The hell is up with that? I admit smoking’s bad for your health. Anyone who says otherwise should have a 2 by 4 cracked over their heads. But then again anyone who thinks that smoking correlates with a person being no better than another person deserves the same, or worse still for bluntly putting it, being naïve. In no ways am I advocating smoking to anyone at all. In fact it’s a filthy habit and hard to boot too for the matter. Trust me. And I’m pretty sure every smoker out there knows it as well.

But what I don’t get is the whole idea that a large percentage of non-smokers tend to automatically categorize smokers as beneath them. Let me just say that most of the premeds I know drink more and smoke more than the non-premeds I know of. Let’s all note also that the tobacco industry is a huge multi-billion dollar global industry which is a huge part of the global economy. Tobacco tax is huge….ask any government. Given a choice of pissing off the enviromentalists and pro-lifers out there or keeping big tobacco in business, they’d prolly screw over the tree-huggers and overly paranoid life lovers out there. There’s really no reason to give someone stick over smoking, unless you’re some 12 yr old kid trying to prove something or a pregnant mom (Jordan should have been shot).

That being said, I can understand disdain on certain levels for smokers. For example I can understand when a non smoker kisses a smoker. It aint nice having ashtray as a bubblegum flavour. So smokers remember to brush, scrape and gargle with listerine before you start playing tonsil-tennis. Or at the very least keep breath mints handy, they don’t work as well but it’s better than nothing I suppose.

I digress. I just felt like rambling cause I bumped into an old friend who was absolutely gob smacked that I picked up this “worst” of deadly sins. Please, I could have done coke lines instead. Kindly do crawl back into your shell and spare the world your ignorance…

*Side note: Those Listerine thin strip breath thingies really work ;)

"There's a sucker born every minute." ~ Joseph Bessimer

Nelly Furtado ~ Maneater

Get your hands off me bitch!

2006-09-05T19:43:00.000+08:00

Hmm haven't blogged in a while. Not really much to blog about recently anyways but heck Jason 'the hairy monster' sent me one of those office joke emails that goes buzzing round from mailbox to mailbox everyday (those who've started working will understand). Most of them you've heard over and over again but this one was a first for me. And it brought a lil smile along so heck I'm putting it up here...

Martin wakes up at home with a huge hangover. He forces himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins and a glass of water on the side table. He sits up and notices his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed. Martin looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotless and clean. So is the rest of the house. He takes the aspirins and notices a note on the table. "Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early to go shopping. Love You!"

So he goes to the kitchen and, sure enough, there is a hot breakfast and the morning newspaper. His son is also at the table, eating. Martin asks, "Son, what happened last night?"

His son says, "Well, you came home around 3 a.m., drunk and delirious. You broke some furniture, puked in the hallway, and gave yourself a black eye when you stumbled into the door."

Confused, Martin asks, "So, why is everything in order and so clean, and breakfast is on the table waiting for me?"

His son replies, "Oh, that! Mom dragged you to the bedroom, and when she tried to take your pants off, you said, 'Get your hands off me, bitch! I'm married!'"

Moral of the Story:
Self-induced hangover... $100
Broken furniture... $2,000
Breakfast... $10
Saying the right thing to your wife when you're drunk... PRICELESS

"A man can be happy with any woman as long as he doesn't love her." ~ Murphy's Laws On Sex (hmm wonder if this has some truth to it...)

Chingy feat. Tyrese ~ Pulling Me Back

Caffeine makes the world go round....

2006-08-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

I've been running on java bean vapour the whole day and it's starting to make me jittery...have not felt this caffeinated since I had 4 venti americanos and a double espresso (from lunch till dinner mind you) a couple months back when I used to frequent starbucks mt kiara every afternoon on the pretext of job hunting and studying for my CFA.

It's a peaceful place up in coffee heaven (if you can handle the constant need to squeeze your hands together to stop them from shaking and the constant tapping of your feet that most prolly irritates your colleagues around you). In any case I felt like rambling bout nothingness cause well...I've got an hour or so to kill before heading out. At the looks of things will prolly end up at Alexis with the guys again.

Things are starting to fall into perspective again. Beginning to welcome the sense of security in knowing what to do now. Oh well, enough blabbing. Just sitting here with my glass of fine scotch and a ciggie while waiting for the horde to descend on bangsar once again...

"Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils." ~ Hector Berlioz

Eagles ~ New York Minute

Are you feeling motivated today?

2006-08-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

Motivation is generally driven by circumstance, don't you think? So unless the current situation requires you to be so, then why bother? However, the circumstances in this instance necessitates that one must remain motivated. But then again when you think about it, isn't motivation just a crude measure of your level of desperation?

So what's the dependant variable and independent/highly stochastic component in this non-linear and extremely subjective equation? How does the *wiggles fingers* line look like? Am I a freaking outlier from the mean sample of data or am I within the acceptable standard deviation from the line?

*pfft* Was feeling very 5 year old-ish a couple hours ago. And now I just felt like revisiting Introductory Econometrics again. It's really strange how when you want to you can tie anything, and I mean absolutely any damn thing, back to yourself. I guess all humans are self absorbed in their own way...

"If the facts don't fit the theory, change the facts." ~ Albert Einstein

Greenday ~ Time of Your Life

Nostalgic

2006-08-05T01:05:00.000+08:00

It's tough when you meet up with everyone again. Really tough. All the memories just come flooding back in. And then you realise some are missing from the picture...von, dom, bren, mei, steven...Then you realise you're in the wrong setting too. You lean back against the wall and instead of finding london grime on ya you find white chalkie stains. There's no constant drizzle and the passing drunkards, the clanking of empty beer bottles falling from homeless hands, the sirens blazing now and then, minicabs trying to haggle their way.....I miss london. More so I miss being there with the great friends I made there.

Just seems so long ago and now that everyone's gotten on with the inevitable, we're just so separated by distance and time. Sigh am losing touch with some of the best people I've met.

*holds up a glass of scotch* To all you out there. You know who you are...

"There is nothing permanent except change" ~ Herlicutus

Goo Goo Dolls ~ Iris

Who the heck is this guy?

2006-08-03T01:03:00.000+08:00

You know sometimes you come across something which just totally facinates you. Might be in complete contrast to who you are or what ya believe in, but it just keeps drawing you back again and again. This time mainly cause it's bloody hillarious and you have to, HAVE TO, leave any sense of moral decency and respect for yourself and women aside and just think of it as one of those exceedingly dumb yet stupendously funny kinda stuff (think along the lines of Harold & Kumar go to White Castle).

Well in any case, if you're not a prude and are up for a good laugh or two and think you won't be too insulted or disgusted, then go check out www.tuckermax.com . I swear I've been laughing my ass off in office half the time when I'm not working.

*Note* I do not have ANY affiliation whatsoever to Mr. Max nor condone his behaviour nor his "liberal" outlook on life. I just enjoy reading his stuff. Gotta give credit to the dude, he has a flair for language lol. If you can call it that...

"Beer. Now there's a temporary solution." ~Homer Simpson

Everclear ~ Wonderful

Hmmm...

2006-07-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

Crap, this is inconvenient. Shouldn't be happening like this...really shouldn't. Too soon. *sigh*

"The world is governed more by appearance than realities so that it is fully as necessary to seem to know something as to know it." ~ Daniel Webster

Jack Johnson ~ Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Summer...(or winter for some)

2006-07-24T19:14:00.000+08:00

I'm not one for words today (especially after last Saturday night at Velvet - in my defense it's been a hell of a long time since I drank that much ~circa over a year back) Pictures say enough. I enjoy the company of my friends...

No Black Tie

Alexis

Velvet (2 Saturday's ago. Don't think anyone could hold the camera still enough to snap a photo this past Saturday lol)

(drank a lil too much methinks...)

"An Irish queer is a fellow who prefers women to drink." ~ Sean O'Faolain

Chris DeBurgh ~ Lady in Red

Freak Storms Hit KL

2006-07-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

Okie global warming is definitely screwing around the weather systems. Mother nature's got a stick the size of the Petronas Twin Towers one end on top of each other stuck up her tush. I woke up this glorious Saturday morning on the 22nd of July all chirpy and all and she just decided to fuck with me today.

So here's what happened. I got all dressed and ready to go catch a movie but as I was having a smoke on my balcony I notice black clouds and freaky lightning streaking across the horizon and it's like some scene from one of those Hollywood disaster movies. I shit you not but that storm front just crossed over the hills in Taman Tun and what not and was moving straight passed my condo. Lucky thing had enough sense to close all the windows and what not but heck man wind was howling like mad and rain water was even being forced in through the window cracks and not.

Trees were being uprooted and there was even a point where it was like a curtain of pure water slamming into my window. I had bloody plastic bags and some fat ladies grandma undies smacked against my window and I was like gee, maybe the world is really coming to an end. An entire window pane from the block next door's lift area got ripped off its hinges (it was on the 9th floor I think) and a branch was sent through a window in the lift area on the 5th floor (my floor) smashing glass all over the place. 3 trees were brought down: 1 in front of the guardhouse and the condo's exit/entrace, another just a few metres away and one right in front of the driveway of the carpark. No one could get in or out of the place.

I have never seen any shit like this. My entire kitchen and balcony area was flooded, debris all over the place and thank god I cleared my cat's litter box just this morning or I would have had cat poo all over the place as well. Spent the whole frigging afternoon cleaning the place up and washing the cars which were all covered in leaves and mud.

So here's a lesson, don't fuck with mother nature. She can be pretty bitchy at times...

"And I looked and I beheld a pale horse, and the name that sat on him was Death, and Hell followed with him" ~ Book of Revelations

OST ~ Armageddon

Lack of H2O

2006-07-20T00:48:00.000+08:00

Okie the last thing you need after a whole day at work followed by a 100 balls at the driving range and mamak with colleagues is for a water cut. I'm all freaking sweaty and icky and in desperate need of a hot shower. Damn irritating...water better be back in the morning or I'm screwed. Off to the poolside I go for a quick cold shower and then back to my good ol' bed...

"Did you know rat poison has an expiry date? What happens when it expires? Does it become delicious?" ~ Gregg Rogell

Audioslave ~ Like A Stone

Shopping in KL...

2006-07-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

Well after countless efforts in trying to get Jessie and Wei Wen to go shopping with me for stuff (okie so I only asked twice and they were busy), I decided to go alone. It's been a damn long while since I've actually felt the need to update my wardrobe. Not trying to be all girly and all but yeah even guys do need to buy stuff yah. We just tend not to do it so often and try not to take too long in making decisions.

That being said I've noticed something vastly different when it comes to shopping for work clothes and the sort in KL. Simply put, there's a lack of selection here and a balance between nice and affordable. The truly nice stuff are either so bloody inflated after I do conversions and what not to pounds it would have been cheaper back in good ol' London. Needless to say my lil "outing" to KLCC proved to be pretty futile. Wanted to get some cufflinks and ties and maybe a shirt or two. Don't think Malaysians aren't really into cufflinks considering that there was practically nothing nice around the whole damn place. And those I considered remotely possible were like freaking RM800 and above. Like screw that man, I used to walk around Covent Garden and complain bout 30-50 pound cufflinks being too expensive. Crap lar over in KL its much worse. Needless to say didn't get any.

As for shirts, nice shirts are hard to come by and they aint cheap. Wasn't going to fork out 400 bucks for shirts from Raoul. So ended up shirtless. There was a sorta pre-sale going around in the shops tho but all the sale items were really crap. Like Armani had 40% (which made them a very affordable RM250 - RM 275) off on their ties but they were like so dull and as usual with anything Armani, came in shades of grey, black, silver and blue only. So I was starting to get really pissed before I decided to go to Burberry. I kinda made it a point earlier this year to stop shopping at Burberry but I guess I've always been partial to their stuff. I don't know why okie. I just am. Maybe its the Brith culture rubbing off on me, tho in my case I'd prolly fall into their "chav" category. lol. But in any case something did catch my eye and I think I just said heck it and just got it lar. At least they dropped the prices on their ties in KL which was a relief. Still prolly could have got the exact same tie for about 70 bucks cheaper if I were in London. But heck.

*Note* I just realised how girly shopaholic this post is... aint good...

"Let us be grateful to the mirror for revealing to us our appearance only." ~ Samuel Butler

Train ~ Drops of Jupiter

Time's so darn precious

2006-07-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

We all used to want to grow up so fast. But now that I'm 23 and working I wish I had more time to get my other stuff sorted first. Well technically I did have all the time in the world earlier, just never used it wisely. Heck only thing to do now is look forward and make the best of what's to come.

Haven't been blogging much cause I've just been too busy with everything. I come back from work and feed the fat cat, do some house keeping and well catch up with friends. By the way I never had to do too much ironing during uni days cause it was simple. You grab your clothes from the wash and chuck it on the rack nicely in front of the heaters and you basically have a sorta steam iron effect. Wasn't the best way to keep stuff non-wrinkly but it was good enough. Now being back in Malaysia, ironing work clothes is a bitch. I miss my parents lol. I farking hate doing laundry. Sigh another 3 weeks till parental units are back and I don't have to do laundry lol.

Work hasn't been to terribly exciting. It's been okie so far. Am pretty lucky that my current team is a fun bunch. Actually surprised how well I got along with em so soon. think being there's gonna be alright after all. It's still early days so let's see how it goes. Just thanking god at the moment that my next project isn't the Labuan one...lol Poor Suef tho :P Can't imagine myself being in Labuan for 3 - 4 weeks. Think I'd go mad over there. Apparently there's almost absolutely nothing to do.

In any case I'm glad the crew's slowly trickling back. Cham just got back a couple days ago. Met up with her for coffee with Suef and bless the aunty she bought me alkie...but the wrong ciggies. Anyone wants a carton of dunhill reds? Chris is back on Wednesday and I expect the drinking and pokering and the usual bbq sessions at his house will start up again. Nick will be back the week after apparently and then the golf kaki crew will be complete. Think Lims and Su will be back within the next 2 weeks too so yeah. All accounted for cept birdie...but birdie just messaged that she'll be back for a couple weeks. Just not sure when. God damn I really do miss the London peeps. I miss London.

"Talent is formed in quiet retreat; character in the headlong rush of life." ~ Goethe

Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds - #41

The English Rose Falters....once again

2006-07-02T04:07:00.000+08:00

Well I admit that watching them go down in penalties was disappointing. But in all honesty I don't think they had what it took to win the World Cup anyways. Maybe they would have made it to the semifinals or even the finals. But the team never looked like they had that extra "it" factor to take the cup back to England. It's a shame but heck, I'd bet that most people thought the same too, even the Brits. Oh well, such is football...

Minesweeper

2006-06-27T14:35:00.000+08:00

Its a habit of mine to do this in between conversations or whatever I do online. When I'm waiting for a page to load or a file to download or Caryn to take her god damn own sweet time to answer important messages while she's too busy jumping and hopping around in her room with Bird or Su over god knows who she saw from OK or Hello Magazine or what not...kidding lims you know I don't think you're so flighty :P

Anyways, this is what I do. I play minesweeper. And heck I've never gotten below the 170 second mark so hellllllllllll yeah!

"Just cause you're hung like a moose doesn't mean you have to do porn" ~ Harold and Kumar

INXS ~ Pretty Vegas

Everything's Just Gone Up In Smoke

2006-06-25T06:37:00.000+08:00

I'm in a very bad place at the moment. It's like a mixture of anger, disappointment and depression topped off with a smiley face just to spite you further. My car is inching closer, no, bloody speeding towards the scrap pile. I have no idea what the hell is wrong with it but one thing's for sure, it's doomed. It took me bloody 45 minutes to get back from Bandar Utama to Hartamas. And traffic was bloody clear. A drive which usually takes me 10 minutes or so was dragged on by the fact that the stupid engine kept sputtering and dying on me. I practically drove all the way back under 30 kph. I am not a happy camper. I need my new Civic fast...

"We live in an age when pizza gets to your home before the police." ~ Jeff Marder (completely in agreement with this)

Incubus ~ Drive

Selective Amnesia

2006-06-22T04:11:00.000+08:00

It's half time and if I'm not mistaken Argentina seems to be having the upper hand against the Netherlands. I really don't know. To be honest I'm not even sure if the score is still 0-0. Mind was kinda drifting all over the place. Maybe its football overload *shock horror*. Nah doubt it. Just think that I've been thinking bout lots of stuff really. Bout what I need to do over the next few months and years. How will things pan out and all that. What to do over July cause I'm gonna be home alone the whole month. Crap. Looks like I'll have to start doing laundry and ironing again. The cat's not gonna be too happy my mom's gonna be gone for so long either.

Anyways losing track here. Was just thinking bout past stuff. Bout the lil memories when I was a young kid playing in the sandbox in Villamaria (my old kindergarten). To times running around the neighbourhood, crawling through monsoon drains, going crazy on my bike all over Damansara Heights. To early MCKL days. My first girlfriend. First performance on stage with my old guitar ,which I have not even touched or seen for the past god knows how many years...in fact to be perfectly honest I have no idea what happened to it. I can't even remember if its in the storeroom somewhere or I sold it off or something. Honest to god. Then to volleyball team games. Being admonished discretely by the principal for making out with ex #1 behind the science lab lol. Okie maybe somethings you definitely never forget. To days at Taylor's College. Running for the A-Level's presidency and winning by virtue of excellent cookies and brownies (birdie was one of the suckers who got swayed by the power of chocolate goodness :P)

I could go on and on bout the stuff I remember throughout my 22 years 8 months of my life. But I think I'll stop making my life history public at this juncture. What I really realised though is that sometimes there are things you don't want to remember at all. Moments you wish you did better, times you know you can't change yet if you could....just if...Well simply put sometimes you wish you had selective amnesia. To just forget certain memories. Nightmarish ones like the 4th of January 2001 where 8 idiots jumped into 2 cars and went speeding down the highway ending up in a massive accident which completely totalled one car and a entire section of the side railing. Somehow we all managed to survive that. It scares me sometimes thinking about it. But there are other incidents as well. None life threatening. But just lil pockets in history you'd rather not revisit, even in your dreams.

Its at strange times that you start thinking bout them. They all come flooding in at once and you just get so overwhelmed by everything. Some you don't mind remembering I guess but you just don't wanna them to cross your mind too often. Some you just want completely erased. Wishing my mind was an ipod at the moment. Hmm which to keep and which to erase. Prolly still end up keeping everything cause there's still bout 90% storage capacity unused lol. Sigh, its just one of those nights I guess.

*extra note* Hobo life journey officially ends 3rd of July... thus begins the new phase

"If you wish to forget something on the spot, make a note that this thing is to be remembered." ~ Edgar Allen Poe

Madonna ~ I'll Remember

Don't Ever Let Go of the Remote Even When Choking...

2006-06-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

This while watching football and stuffing my face with oranges...

Me : *Munch* *Munch* *cough* *gag* *choke*

Mother: You better not be choking cause I can't save you....*calmly takes the remote and switches to Wah Lai Toi channel*

Me: *cough* *gag* *sputter*.....

My parentals are so loving....And to think that 20 years ago she was some head nurse of dunno what department in god knows what hospital in London and Melbourne. The problem bout having parents who are or used to be in the medical profession is that you tend to go through most of your childhood (and even "adulthood") being home medicated. I swear if the Board of Medicine or whatever they call it here decides to raid our place, we'd be charged straight away for possessing prescriptive drugs in amounts deemed sufficient for intent to distribute without a license. I'm surprised that I didn't turn into some pill popping junky...

"I'm a vegetarian but I'm not hardcore. I eat a lot of meat" ~ Annonymous

Queen ~ Under Pressure

Treasure Hunt!

2006-06-15T17:46:00.000+08:00

God damn this is something interesting. Basically those boring Swedes have come up with something somewhat new. In time with the release of Pirates of the Caribbean, those crazy bastards have burried a Volvo XC90 somewhere in the world and are challenging anyone, anywhere to find it. Basically they release clues through email periodically starting from the 12th of June and the last clue comes out on the 12th of July. You've gotta go to a Volvo dealership and pick up a registry code or something to enter into their website and then you can sign up for the emails. TREAAAAAAASSSSSSSUUUUUURRRRRRREEEEEEEEE HUUUUNNNNNNNT!

Problem is its only for bloody UK Residents who have a UK driving license ... *sigh* How I wish I was still in London! In any case check it out at www.volvocars.co.uk/thehunt

"We're going to hell, so bring your sunblock." ~ Ari Gold of Entourage

OST Monkey Island ~ Theme Song (if you haven't heard of Monkey Island you are A) not a gamer B) not into comical hillarious animated adventure puzzle solving games C) lack a warped sense of humour only Guybrush Treepwood immortalized)

Lies, Lies, Bloody Lies

2006-06-13T02:54:00.000+08:00

It's always the same case. People often wonder why others lie. Some blatantly do it and others are forced to. There's really no point going into details bout deception. It seems like a natural instinct for us humans, something that goes hand in hand with nature, just like how a newly born baby is instinctually drawn to its mom's breasts. The capacity to conjure fictitious reasons for our actions is ever so common in our daily lives. Sometimes it becomes habitual and at other times you just fall back on it to keep yourself standing. What most refuse to acknowledge is that in the end the truth usually does resurface. It's just a matter of time. We all just hope that it only shows itself long after we're gone or it is inconsequential .

We've all lied. From simple white lies to those major deceptions that would shake someone's world. Well I'm speaking in a literal sense like from a one to one perspective more so than an earth shattering discovery that George Bush is actually an Arab in disguise...well you get my drift. From what I've seen and gathered, most of the time when we're forced to a corner we tend to take the easy way out, to literally slither through some slimy crack just to avoid having to face what's knocking at the door. In short, we lie to cover our own asses. We lie so that we don't have to face the truth and the consequences. But in the end, what differentiates it all is how we do it. Some are so skillful in their ways that they are hardly caught. Note the emphasis on hardly. What we all hope is that our lies don't become our downfall. Sure some come back and bite us in the ass but we all want to avoid that ever looming chance that one day we lie about something that can't be undone. Something that comes back and haunts us for the rest of our lives.

Is there ever a good enough reason to lie? Is it really to protect that person you love or are you seriously just hiding your own skeletons? Who are we trying to kid in the end?

No one's a saint. And I'm sure those who hold themselves to supposedly higher standards are neither exempt from this secondary behaviour. We see friends, acquaintances, relatives and even strangers seek to deceive and misrepresent themselves all to put themselves in a different, and hopefully, better perspective. Its like some sick chess game which social culture has created and nurtured. We all are pawns in the end working to some twisted end. What I want to know now is how does everything pan out in the greater scale of things. Fiction may sound so intriguing, so exciting...but from what I've seen and heard in my short 23 years walking around cluelessly on this planet is that, the truth is far more entertaining than the best your imagination can come up with.

Lies all serve to hide the fact that we can't face up with the realities of the situation whatever it may be. Lies serve as a shield to our weaknesses and short comings. Lies become our ally with a golden halo, shadowing our deeper demons burning in hell. Lies, lies and more bloody god damn lies. We can't live without them and we can't live with them. We try to sometimes. Go on with our daily lives like nothing's happened. Pretend that the world is fine but almost everything is a lie anyway. Advertising, promoting the best in a product ever so cleverly shifting our attention from its flaws or outright rip offs. Speeches, meant to move us and get us on our feet, but just for politicians to solidify their position for the next election. Tales of good deeds and chivalrous action but never the gritty details of how they justify a means to an end. Wars fought over the name of democracy and liberation when religion and economics are the true pulling forces.

Don't you all agree anything remotely related to fiction on commercial stores would be rendered obsolete if we all were fed the truth?

Feel free to comment. Ask me questions you've never asked before. I think someone gave me a truth serum or sorts. I'm in one of those moods. Might never know what skeletons I might share with you...

"Three may keep a secret, if two of them are dead." ~ Benjamin Franklin

Verve Pipe ~ The Freshman

Always think two steps ahead...

2006-06-11T16:59:00.000+08:00

The past couple of months have been best described as a sweat induced blur. As you all know, the constant gym and workout sessions - which bothered on obsessive excessiveness - have all been geared for one singular purpose. All the sweat, pain, grunting and vision blurring white spots translated into a leaner person lighter by around 5 kgs. *proud* Yet it was all meticulously planned. All in preparation for this momentous moment of moments in life! Which happens only once in 4 years! What you say?

Well, its bloody World Cup season that's why. I expect huge disgustingly wasteful and disrespectful consumption of beer, whisky, vodka & wine combined with the ever trusty pizzas, fried chicken and chips. I'm gonna be bloody grateful if I only put back the 5kgs I've lost after the coming 6 weeks. But, heck it's all worth it =D

Btw, if England wins I'll be one of those out of the closet England supporters celebrating on the street and drinking like there's no tomm. Chances are tho they won't but heck its worth dreaming. But logic overrides emotions and my money's on Brazil. You see it's a smart thing, you hedge your emotional gains vs monetary reward. If either wins I stand to be celebrating WITH DRINKS. Only problem is that everyone seems to think that Argentina might actually upset the samba boys...and if that happens I'd be royally pissed and there'll be even more drinking. Hmmm we seem to be building a pattern here....

*Edit note* I have dully refuse to acknowledge that similar patterns of behaviour also apply every 2 years during the European Championships and also every other week when there's F1 or 4 times a year when there's a Grand Slam(Federer bloody better beat Nadal tonight) and every year at the Finals for the Champions League and at least 10 times a year when Madrid plays Barcelona, Inter Milan plays AC Milan and Chelsea plays Liverpool/MU/Arsenal.... Do you guys notice a correlation somewhere here or is it just me?

"Hoping is easier than thinking." ~ Iain Banks

Dave Matthes Band ~ I Did It

Decisions, decisions, decisions....

2006-06-09T17:06:00.000+08:00

Okie, apparently the family - or rather my dad - has come to a conclusion that it is finally time to retire the dentist car. My trusty rust bucket of a Volvo is finally headed towards the second hand car market. Apologies to everyone who still deem me as a safe and responsible driver with a sturdy car. Am no longer gonna be designated ah-mat to the crew. Am going to joing the ah-beng che sau crew. Am getting a new Civic =D

So this will be my new baby. Honda's first 2 litre Civic. The Civic 2.0S. Just a lil annoyed its not an Si but heck, I doubt my dad would be convinced to buy any sorta tuned up sports car unless it's going to be a Porsche, which by the looks of it he'll never actually put money out to get regardless of winning the lottery. I swear his practicallity rubs off on me too much sometimes. But logic aside, the new Civic seems like a pretty decent car. The 2.0 compared to the 1.8 has sportier rims, paddle shifters, a more responsive steering wheel which is electronically powered(1.8 only has a standard wheel with nothing else on it and hydraulic powered), additional airbags, leather seats (which I think is a huge plus), DOHC (1.8 is only SOHC), 6 disc changer (1.8 has only a single disc player), HID lights and side mirror turning lights. The car in general handles very well and most importantly, won't blow a bloody hole in my pocket for fuel. Even the 2.0 is gonna cut my fuel budget by at least 35% from the stupid fuel guzzling Volvo. Only test driven the 1.8 and its pretty powerful so the 2.0 should be interesting in terms of power output. =D Hey, there's a racer boy in every guy regardless of how much of a grandma he drives okie...

Were initially supposed to get the 1.8 since the waiting time for it is about only 4 months but heck, we figured we weren't in a rush to get a new car so we've commited to the 2.0. Problem is that its a 6-8 mths waiting period and we'd be lucky as heck to get it by CNY 07. Now the decision to be made is what colour to get? Apparently all production 2.0 cars come only in black leather interior which would look crap in all their colours except for maybe the red or black, maybe the bronze. Dealer said they'll probably introduce the other leather shades later on when supply isn't so constrained. Still begs the question of what colour to get. Guys? Any suggestions?

Habanero Red Pearl (apparently the least in demand now so car will most prolly be delivered earlier if chosen)
Alabaster Silver Metallic (bloody common car colour but easy to hide dirt - big plus considering im such a lazy bum when it comes to washing the car)
Nighthawk Black Pearl (2nd most popular colour so delivery will be late and its bloody hard to hide dirt and scratches in a black car)
Bronze Silver Pearl (most popular colour so expect delivery to be in 9-10 mths even but looks pretty alright)
Bluish Silver Metallic (prolly the colour we're gonna get but if it comes with black interior its gonna look downright weird)

Need to decide by this weekend....decisions, decisions, decisions...

"I saw corn-fed, farm-reared breast of chicken on the menu of a posh restaurant... I don't care about the chicken's childhood." - Danny Bhoy

Limp Bizkit ~ Rolling

Taking a break...

2006-06-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

Okie, am piled up with tonnes of things to do over the course of the next couple weeks. So shall be taking a break from blogging duties. Not that the absence of posts will be completely world-stopping in nature. But its just a notice of warning to loyah kay poh visitors....ie you caryn. Toodles.

Say hello to fucked up bodyclocks

2006-05-30T08:04:00.000+08:00

Seems like a common occurrence. Been running on 48 hour days recently with 12 hr sleeps between. Guess I somewhat know how a medic feels now. But its all good. Would be better if I was more productive of course :P But things are looking up. Been pretty much occupied thinking bout my career options and what not. Offers to delay and interviews to rush. But most importantly, I have a 45 minute case study of a technical business plan to prep for. Just got the email from HK and they have FINALLY set the assessment date. So I've got about 3 days to prep everything and brush up on my accounting & finance. Sigh. Not putting too much hope in this one tho eventhough I'm gonna be working my butt off for it. Still is pretty much a long shot and the other potentials seem more feasible. But heck I've been called in so might as well make the best of it. Hopefully what I learnt from the Bain experience will help me pull through to the next round. *crosses fingers*

Alrighteys then, really should stock up on a couple things. Few frivolous things I need to get in the meantime::

A nice crystal whisky glass.
Ice cube trays...my household has gotta be the only one in the world without cube trays :S
Some kinda cabinet for my growing bottle collection

Yeah my parents think I'm turning into an alkie. Heck if they only knew how much I spend on coffee instead. Sick of being a leech on the parental units. Need a job. NOW. So much crap to settle first tho. Am annoyed. Have not had my caffeine dosage for the day. Hmmm to go to Starbucks now or not?

"If there is no struggle, there is no progress." ~ Frederick Douglass

U2 ~ In the Name of Love

The League of Dysfunctional Bitches/Bastards (TLDBs)

2006-05-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

In lieu with the whole comic book based movies, I present The League of Dysfunctional Bitches/Bastards to commemorate mths/yrs of endless training in pursuit of perfection within our own individual arts...

HONORARY MEMBERS::

Sue Fern ~ Substance Abuse Bitch

Panadol is the world's greatest creation

Caryn ~ Alkie Party Bitch

What's a party without drinks, smokes and Caryn?

Yvonne ~ Vain Shopaholic Bitch

I'm so faaaaaaaaat........ooooohhhh Prada!

Barry ~ Fat Horny Bastard

*Struts around in a fireman's costume* There's a fire in my pants to put out!

Chris ~ Overexcited Think He's So Cute Wanna Get Everybody Drunk Bastard

Drink! Drink! Dwwwwinnnk!

Dominic ~ I'm Too Busy For Anyone Except Vain Shopaholic Bitch - Bastard (used to be Buff Boy)

SiMiSai!

Justin ~ Caffeinated Aggro Bastard

Where the fuck is my Americano?

To the rest of the Londoners who have yet to join the LEAGUE OF DYSFUNCTIONAL BITCHES/BASTARDS. We are currently recruiting. To those who have yet to be named, we couldn't come up with a Dysfunctional name best suited for thee (ie Su Lyn, Brenda, Lyn, etc etc) Maybe you guys aren't dysfunctional enough I guess lol.

Kudos to Substance Abuse Bitch for creative input under the influence of painkillers and caffeine.

"Avoid fruits and nuts. You are what you eat." ~ Anonymous

Aerosmith ~ Spiderman

Of Lifelines and a Dreamer's woes

2006-05-27T06:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in the maelstrom that we come to know as life, we get second chances to turn things around. Okie sometimes we're luckier than we should be and get more than just one or 2 chances, but multiple opportunities over a period of time. I know cause I've been lucky enough to be one of those guys. Everything has been pretty bleak recently in terms of future outlook and what not, but now, right now, after wasting many, many, maaaaaany lifelines thrown at me, I have another one dangling tantalizingly in front of my eyes, just beyond reach.

Now the question that comes to mind is how do I go about this. Do you play it safe and avoid the tempting carrot on a stick and just look at a longer term and much more guaranteed outcome, or reach out and try to grasp that damn vegetable? Its not entirely out of reach you see. Its just a matter of self belief and effort. But then you constantly question your own abilities due to the past failures and wonder if you truly are capable of handling it. The prize is immense. That's to say the least. The reward would be a dream fulfilled - or at least a major milestone step in the right direction. Do you bring yourself to stand once again and put hope in it? Is the fear of failure too great to handle should it happen again? Its not entirely out of the question you see. Some sorta demented Sophie's choice dilemma.

Deep down I know that in comparison, I might not be the best suited. In truth, I might not have what it takes. You gotta be practical to a point after going through what I've been through. Then again you also consider the other factors. The growth achieved over that period. The experience and knowledge you have now which you wish you had earlier. Would it be different this time around? Would you actually be able to nibble at that carrot after all?

Dreams are hard to let go. Or at least the ones you've had planned for so long in your life. But some dreams are mere fairy tales and you wonder when you'd wake up to reality. But given this chance right now, I honestly feel that to quit now and just walk away, and do what I detest yet practise a lot....play it safe, would be a crime to myself in all senses. It's not who I am. I can't let this chance pass me by. Not again. I'd think I'd be even worse off knowing I didn't try rather than falling down again. After all, I've bounced right back up from my ass so many times *sigh* it can't be all too different from the previous times.

Its a do or die situation now. Take that step across the ledge and do what you have to do. Do it smart. Don't let go of what you have now and reach for what you want to get. In a banker's phrase:: Hedge all your bets. If it goes wrong at least I won't lose out too much but, BUT....if it works out, GODDAMN!! So that's that. It's pretty much decided now I guess. We do what we have to do. Just go for it. And make sure you put every effort in it. Don't repeat the same old mistakes. Improvise. Grow from within and most of all, don't be afraid to ask for help. Pride - the all-consuming weakness - is something that has to be harnessed effectively. Pride in yourself and your abilities without being over-confident. Without losing track of what needs to be done.

It is time. It is time to get going again. One last chance for something you've always wanted. One last bloody chance. Can't waste it. Not for anyone or anything. This is mine. I want it. I wanna be able to look myself in the mirror and be grateful for everything. I want this. I can have this. I'm taking it...

"A minute's success pays the failure of years" ~ Robert Browning

Gloria Gaynor ~ I Will Survive

:)

2006-05-24T03:43:00.000+08:00

Finally... we get to turn the leaf over for real now and get the ball rolling again. Feels like a boulder's been lifted from my shoulders. Feels strange.

Caryn :: Thanks for being so patient. I know its tough for you considering your lack of that virtue. Lol But I've always enjoyed your company despite our constant cat fights wherever we are. Don't do the masters lar...come back KL work here for a while keep me and Suef company. :)

Yvonne:: You prolly dispensed the most in comfort and you're always there to change the topic be it you're stressed or you're fat again....selfish hippo :) Can't express my appreciation for the past years of friendship. Say hi to ex-buff boy for me. Tell him I'm taking over the title now *grin*

Bird:: For always trying to keep my chin up. I'm there for you too babes. And no, you don't look like a "goddamn fucking ball". :)

Suef:: Hey, seriously you deserve the BIGGEST thanks. You were there with me since the start (prolly cause you were my coffee buddy and you're the only one in KL from the main group). Don't know how to say thanks any much more for just listening and straightening me out. Used to be so darn practical and coldly logical in my thought processes. Thanks for at least restoring some of that back.

Cham:: Woman get your kindergarten teacher ass back here cause I hardly hear from you and you used to keep things calm for us all.

Jer Wei:: Dude thanks for just being there when I had to get out and meet new people. Dude thanks for being a true friend lar all these years. What's it now? 10 years +?

Sandra:: Darling you just have a way of turning a frown upside down lar in that weird aloof klutzy fashion of yours. Take care in HK yah and bloody heck make sure Chester doesn't think I'm after you or something hahaha

Leonie:: Hey woman, you've been solid lar. Always around at the weirdest hours to talk about everything from crap to bullshit and giving pointers to each other on workout sessions. LoL man, come back quick cause Barry and me need a new drinking buddy.

Brenda:: You practically disappeared after graduation and reappeared again. Woman your no-nonsense no-bullshit ways have been sorely missed. Can always count on you to give me a sobering up. Damn woman I miss you and your company at Gala :P

Barry:: Dude whats up with UOB lar? They've been keeping you too tightly chained to your desk. Its always guaranteed a blast with this big bear out for drinks.

Wei Wen & Edwin:: Dudes, mahjong has never been so therapeutic.

May Yee:: Woman, even though we get caught up in our own worlds and we hardly speak for long moments at a time, you're always the same person who cares for me in the end. I know I haven't been really there for you but man I'm gonna be that same buddy a few years back. Heck of a friend who's always there when you need her.

Chia Huei:: You're the one who somehow just popped in and started talking to me about everything and anything under the sun. We have more in common than I ever imagined and damn going on and on about our individual cases just makes me feel that I'm not alone out there. Get your butt back from Beijing. Need to incorporate you into my coffee sessions, tho you don't drink coffee lol

And finally, I know I know everyone's prolly gonna let out a collective groan/sigh/chuckle, but....

Thank you to my god damn fat cat Twitch. Man you have no idea how many times I've just picked him up when he's fast asleep and squished him. Yes I love my orange furball dearly. Call me gay for all I care. But heck I love my cat. He makes me calm tho he scratches and bites. :P

Thanks guys...all of you

"My father always used to say that when you die, if you've got five real friends, then you've had a great life." ~ Lee Iacocca

Thirsty Merc ~ Someday, Someday

Velvet again...

2006-05-21T14:58:00.000+08:00

First of all, thank god for 24/7 Starbucks on Fridays & Saturdays. So needed that americano despite it being 4:45 am. Had a very interesting night to say the least. Meeting new people and all. Velvet was playing really good music for some flukish reason. Usually it gets a lil too random on Saturday nights but the DJ kinda spun things right this time around. That being said didn't wanna drink so much cause it wasn't even my normal batch of friends' table. Spent most of the night hopping from one table to another to another (Razlan to Johan to TJ to Ben). Felt kinda bad cause everytime I appeared at one table someone would push a drink in my face and I'd be drinking and then when I offer to chip in for the bottles everyone just tells me to drink...so yeah. Pai she weh. I know how irritating free-loaders can be at clubs. So must make it a point to get those guys drinks next time I see them. Which most prolly will be at Velvet again next Fri or Sat. Bloody permanent fixtures there on weekends these guys. (Shit just realised I didn't chip in at SevenAteNine too....crap sorry Barry, Edwin, Yu Jin!) Later yum cha on me lar...

Left Velvet pretty early to be honest around 2ish but ended up going over to Eugene's place in Taman Seputeh. Some new gated community over there called Seputeh Heights methinks. Have to admit, he's got one heck of a crib. Stayed there just chilling out, having coke light lol and makaning. Was pretty chilled out and all but I guess felt kinda awkward after a bit cause we just got to know these guys at the club. Well minus Yoong Yue but I never really was close to him before and it was sporadic meetings throughout the past 10 years. But he's cool and so are the rest of em so they made us feel right in and all. All in all a pretty cool bunch. Still digging his crib...fark MTV Cribs Malaysia anyone? Got a few places in mind...lol

Well after that had to ferry the guys and girls home around PJ and that's where I got my coffee call. After passing by this HUGE crash at Phileo Damansara. Think there were like 3 cars involved in total. They took out the centre barrier and stuff and there were tons of gawkers and toll trucks and what not clogging the road. Think two of the cars were turtled and the wheels were bloody on my side of the road. Was pretty shocking. And me going....yeah okie I need coffee. :P Don't get whats up with all the gawkers tho. I had to slow down just to squeeze past everybody and its like a bloody 4 lane highway too dumbasses. That being said luckily I wasn't carrying too much speed cause it was over a righ hook bend totally covering my vision. Ah well, people drink and drive. Some just drink too much and drive. Some just can't drive period. You combine part B + C and you get BYEBYE and sure CRASH. Okie that was my lame contribution off the day. But heck I just woke up...

"An alchoholic is someone you don't like who drinks just as much as you" ~ Dylan Thomas

Red Hot Chilli Peppers ~ By The Way

Colourblind

2006-05-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

I am stressed. For the first time I have too many "feasible" options to consider. And the worst part is I don't have time to fully analyze each one of em and pursue them. So pretty much fucked in all senses. Shall be interesting to see what pans out in the end.

On the other side of things, everything's pretty much hunky dory. Came across this line in a header :: "I am folded, unfolded, and unfolding". It was so bloody familiar for some reason. And then it hit me, its a line from Colourblind from Counting Crows. Its an awesome song. You guys prolly wouldn't know it by its name but its the song from Cruel Intentions. I remember playing it over and over again in highschool and again in first year as LSE in the Holborn halls lol. Was actually contemplating performing it for MSS Nite but me and Jason ended up playing With or Without You and Belaian Jiwa instead. Its a really sedated kinda chilled out song. Might be a bit depressing depending on the state you're in but definitely worth a listen if you haven't heard it before. Lol think the only reason why I was so into the song last time was cause it was simple to play and one of the only songs I could sing to at the same time. For those who know me, my vocal capabilities are limited....fine they are pretty much non-existent. Anyways, here's the song....

Counting Crows ~ Colourblind

I am colourblind

Coffee black and egg white

Pull me out from inside

I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am ... taffy-stuck and tongue-tied

Stuttered shook and uptight

Pull me out from inside

I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am ... fine

I am covered in skin

No one gets to come in

Pull me out from inside

I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding, I am ... colourblind

Coffee black and egg white

Pull me out from inside

I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am ... fine

I am fine

I am fine...

"The best way of predicting a future is to invent it" ~ Alan Kay

Shawn Mullins ~ Lullaby

Janie's Got a Gun

2006-05-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

Well I'm in a weird sorta mood today. Have been a tad annoyed recently at certain things bout my 2nd home, ie Starbucks. I have a few things I want rectified there namely and they are (in order of importance to me...) ::

To increase the amount of power points available for laptop users
Do something bout the a/c cause its too bloody cold inside at times (I know I know this coming from someone who spent 3 years in London with its gloomy weather. But hey I've been back in KL for almost a year now -which is kinda sad but that's another blog for another day- and I have very nicely readjusted back to the weather here.)
Get bigger tables cause I can't fit all my crap on one to do my work and all.

Chances are slim that this will happen anytime soon (if ever) but one can only hope right?

Anyways not much new with me. Got a couple interviews, more masters offers, waiting for more interviews and better prospects to reply. Currently I think top of the list would be the GE FMP prog and the HK internship but chances for the HK one is slight to none after the phone interview. GE will only come back to me mid june to mid july earliest so that kinda eliminates waiting for it. Prolly will start something first and if it does happen (ie I get an interview and pass all the same ol' tests and all and play monkey....jump monkey jump!) I'll prolly just hand in my 2 wks notice with whoever I'm with lar. Deferring all my masters offers till March next year as backup. No point wasting the application fees I guess.

Had a great time at Ghetto Heaven last Friday night given all circumstances. I know a lot of peeps were pretty annoyed at certain things happening that night and didn't really quite let loose. Know how it sucks to be that way when you're out partying so I sympathize but heck, I had a blast so its all good for the moment. This Friday night supposed to check out SevenEightNine (7,8,9) with the gang. Been there once for coffee in the afternoon right before I was killed in my Bain & Co case study (sigh soooooo close). Pretty nice place at the Ascott. Might be interesting to see how it'll be like at night. Tho I prolly won't be able to drink or stay too late cause I have an interview the next morning at 10. Sigh that was really bad timing but heck it I'm still gonna go methinks. Just gonna be having OJ the whole night I guess (lifts a glass of OJ to my fellow non-drinker in London) Nick get your chingchong ass back in KL. Need more golf kakis.

So far the daily routines have been holding up. Which is good. And they've already started to show results which is unexpectedly sooner than imagined but nonetheless GREAT! Hmmm question now is can I make it for that beach holiday at Perhentian end of this mth?

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out." ~ Walter Winchell

Aerosmith ~ Janie's Got a Gun

My 2nd and 3rd homes...

2006-05-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

For the past couple of weeks I have found a place to call my second home. Its not a new place or anything fancy or what not. It just has everything I need at the moment to survive. Ample space, plush sofas, tables, power points and wireless broadband for free and of course, coffee....lots of it.

Basically been going to Starbucks at Plaza Mt Kiara pretty religiously everyday in the afternoons or late at nights on Fridays and Saturdays (they're ope 24/7 on those days and eve of Public hols). The coffee intake is an addiction I don't think I can kick off. Prolly would be much harder to quit than smokes. Which btw the process of quitting exactly that is more costly than expected. I have been going through multiple packs of chewing gum on a daily basis to break the habit. Seems to be working so far. Think tomm I shall pay a visit to Carrefour or something and buy gum in bulk...

And then there's also my 3rd home which is closer to home than anywhere else. Okie fine its just downstairs. My apartment's gym and pool area. Been a regular visitor there every morning. If you're there at 7:30am you're gonna have to wait your turn for the treadmill my friend...Sigh my life seems pretty mundane. Sleep early, wake up, go to the gym, jump in the pool, take a shower, catch up on news and what not, have lunch, go to starbucks, study, apps, get pissed off at irritating international school kids, go home have dinner, exercise a lil more in my room, shower, back to work or if I'm up for it go meet the guys for coffee(again)/mahjong/or a drink, come back, feed Twitch, sleep....and repeat the next day. Need to interject some random-ness into this....hence the blogging and the occasional drive around neighbourhoods in the middle of the night(have not been stopped by random housing area patrols or police cars yet *touchwood*).

My life right now in a nutshell....

"Accept that somedays you're the pigeon and that somedays you're the statue" ~ Scott Adams

Alanis Morissette ~ You Learn

Don't you all just hate power cuts?

2006-05-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

Had a long workout session in the gym again trying out some new workout routine I got from online. Bloody hell seemed so simple at the start. Like 6 different motions, 10 reps X 1 set only each. Supposedly will give you washboard abs in under 6 mths. I mean come on, how believable can that be....60 reps in total. Crap right? So I was thinking, they seem like plausible steps but under 6 mths? Maybe if I crank up the sets like say to 3 sets of 10 reps each. Well....as with all other brilliant ideas. You come to realize that "professionals" tend to be correct. After like the second motion and 60 crunches later I was lying on the floor half dead. And the genius in me had an even more extensive 30 mins on the treadmill covering 5 km. So yes, saying I was pooped was putting it lightly.

But in the pursuit of vanity and physical perfection, we dig deep and bring out a part of yourself you never knew you had....the mirror. Wonders of nature how the sight of yourself vs what you used to be can do to motivate you. So I somehow managed to finish the other motions (1set of 10 reps each this time smarty pants) and even did my obligatory laps in the pool. Am pleased. Am also pooped. But still couldn't sleep. Work beckons...

So went to Starbucks. Saw the same barristas, the same office workers, the same couples, the same slacker GIS/Mt Kiara International school kids. Sat my ass down at 11am and kept it there till 5pm. Only problem was Plaza Mt Kiara was having scheduled power maintenance, which I didn't know of earlier, and there were like pretty frequent power cuts. Some of them lasting quite long. Was BLOODY irritating lar. Halfway doing online apps and then a power cut kills the wireless connection and you lose 20-30 minutes of hardwork on the stupid online forms. But still managed to get a lot done and had some very timely phonecalls to provide me with good news. Looks like I have more things lined up to prepare for and do in the coming week. But it's better than sitting at home and twiddling my toes I guess. All in all its good that I've started this mundane routine and all. Being pretty disciplined with the apps and studying and especially the workout sessions too. Ah well, guess its enough procrastination for now and back to studying....bloody stupid Ethics and Professional Codes...so dry and some so obvious. Oh well back to the grind...

And the good news still continues, Suef just coincidentally called and told me that I might be called in for another interview soon. Hmmm, now there's a lot on my plate to consider. In any case, interviews don't necessarily translate into job offers. Something learnt from many many manyyyyyyy past experiences. DAMN YOU BAIN & CO SINGAPORE....IT WAS JUST ONEEEEEEEE BAD DAY!

Okie okie no more distractions tonight......study time.

"Men talk of killing time, while time quietly kills them." ~ Dion Boucicault

John Mayer ~ Man on the Side

Productive Day and Puppies!

2006-05-07T20:51:00.000+08:00

Well today was pretty productive to say the least. Got a lot done despite not waking up in time for church. Woke up at 9am. Figured by the time I got ready and all and got there it'll be 9:45 like last week and I'd just catch the last 5 minutes so no real motivation to go. Will make it a point to sleep earlier next Sat so I'll wake up earlier on Sun morn.

So instead I spent extra time in the gym and in the pool. Working out really is addictive. Kinda clears the mind and soul with no negative side-effects....well none that I've experienced so far. *touch wood* Went to Starbucks later on in the day to hit the apps and study material. Actually spent 3 flat hours not moving from that chair and concentrating on everything. Damn like I couldn't even do that when I was at LSE. Only ever got up to use the loo and buy coffee. Guess a sense of desperation is kinda motivating me. Which brings me to believe I can get back what I had 6 / 7 years ago...

The motivation, drive and hunger to get things done
My six-pack abs back!!! (almost there..give it till mid June hopefully at this rate...but methinks sometime in July is more realistic)

Just gotta keep my eyes on the ball and keep at it.

Now okie, enough with the boring recap and stuff. Here's pics from yesterday from the petshop in IKEA. No kitties cause they were all hiding in their cubicles. But there were some really cute puppies. I know I sound like a girl but heck it, they are cute OK.

The white Schnauzer was quite active but just simply refused to look at the cam. Whenever I put up the cam he'd look away and look back straight at me when I put it down. Reminds me a lil' of Twitch and my neighbour's kids, how he just teases them.

At least the pommie bothered posing...somewhat I guess.

Next was by far the most expensive puppy I've seen in KL lar. RM3,480. Gives you...mini-Shinju. Well for those who don't know Shinju, he's this oversized Melbourne-Malamute I got the chance to meet on a few occasions when I was over in Melbourne. Great dog but definitely wouldn't wanna be on the bad side of him. Huge dog...nuff said. Anyways mini-Shinju was just concussed the whole time.

And so were these guys. I swear puppies and kittens just love sleeping in piles of each other.

And here's one random insertion. A quote for my Canadian buddy, Steven, in London::

"Canadians are Americans with no Disneyland" ~ Margaret Mahy

LoL, I don't know but that just cracked me up. I mean like what are they talking abut huh Steve? =P

Guster ~ Two Points for Honesty

Confused

2006-05-07T04:03:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I guess I have nothing to complain about. Happy that things are working out so soon for you, that you're able to take it on the chin and keep your head up and live the life you wanted. Yet, can't help feeling sad about it all as well...

I know I'm not supposed to be mopey anymore...I know...but I am...

Golf, golf and more golf

2006-05-05T14:55:00.000+08:00

So here's the deal, I admit it. I'm a bloody noob on the golf course. But that being said, sometimes the odd days do come along and I turn into super "kai" golfer. Like days where I can save par on a par 3 after tee-ing off into the pond. One amazing chip shot from the drop zone 70 metres away and holed it. Then there are the 20 footer puts to score birdie or save par and the occasional 100 metre chips to a couple inches from the cup.

Today however, was not one of those days. Very far from it if I may say so. So far that we decided to destroy all evidence of our scores as not to embarrass ourselves in the clubhouse should someone pick up our scorecard. So instead of being all grumpy and frustrated on the golf course, Yu Jin (my golfing buddy ie caddy boy or Tiger One depending on his days) and I have come up with a solution. It's very simple as you can see. If you're gonna be playing like a headless chicken on the golf course. The least you can do is look good doing it. Hence ::

I swear we had nothing better to do. I mean like 2 guys constantly stuck behind slow players combined with the fact that we were playing like crap...well we had to entertain ourselves somewhat lar har.

Note to self:: Next time bring an ice-box filled with beer. Perfect alibi for crappy shots. I mean like come on man if I can't see straight, walk straight or keep the buggy on the track, what makes you think I'm gonna hit straight right?

Time to find myself...

2006-05-04T07:16:00.000+08:00

Alright first of all need to get it out to those who've been by my side all this while::

The Flat #9 girls (Caryn, Von, Bird, Su) :: Thanks for being there when I needed you all the most lar.
My coffee buddy Suef :: Woman you by far definitely had to put up with all my moppey-ness and thanks for being impartial and helping me realise stuff bout myself and everything.
Jer Wei & Sandra :: Sorry been ffk-ing you all a lot but thanks for still trying to get me out and cheer me up and stuff

Kay, guess with that done with I should start picking up the pieces and getting my butt off the floor. High time I woke up to reality that its time to move on lar hard as it'll be. No point holding grudges or regrets over what ifs and what nots.Was an eventful time splashed with some of the best times in my life and the lowest moments too. Just gotta take it all and bundle it up, keep it somewhere safe and learn from everything. Time to change to be a better person and keep myself on the straight. Choosing one dream after another and then ending up with neither definitely was a sobering experience. Time to get the gears moving again and put everything aside. Need to concentrate on what I have to get done now::

Get a job started.
Work towards that job you want.
Study for the CFA.

Gonna institute a daily routine from now on. Today was a trial test and didn't really work out too well. 1 hour on the treadmill followed by 20 so laps in the pool and about 200 crunches really zonked me out. Was supposed to study and work in the afternoon but was just way too drained. So here's the new plan, which will begin in t-minus 1.5 hrs::

Wake up by 8:45am everyday
Hit the gym (treadmill 30mins, 10-15 laps in the pool, 100 crunches) *plus 40 crunches before showers
Lunch at home
Job Apps/CFA studying at Starbucks (seem to be so much more productive there)
Dinner
Coffee or drinks with friends
Back to bed by 2am latest

Basically gonna run on this daily routine everyday and interject golf in between. Like say 2 days of the routine followed by a day at the driving range followed by 1 day routine followed by 18 holes at the course. Repeat over the course of the next 4 mths.

Gonna keep myself as occupied as I can. Really does keep everything off my mind at times. As you can see trying to shape up and not be a "Dom" story ie. from buffboy to urm....not so buff-boy? (lol sorry Dom and Von :D) Either way gotta get in shape before the damn PJ half-marathon thingie in June. Think I'll die anyway. 22km...no joke weh. Bloody Yang Jerng somehow got me into this. Hmm maybe should consider the quarter-marathon instead and do the 10km. Sounds more do-able lol. Anyways thats all for now. See ya all at the other end of the tunnel after everything's done and over with....

Need to be more optimistic, need to believe in myself again...

Soul Asylum - Runaway Train

2006-05-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

What do I do now...?

The Geek Inside...

2006-05-02T06:26:00.000+08:00

Here's something bout me most people don't know::

1) I absolutely adore techie geekie digital stuff
2) I am actually pretty crappy with computer equipment despite my love for it

In any case, here's whats been keeping me sane for the past 2 weeks plus or so...

I swear that paying Dell an extra RM118 for that "Charcoal Black" colour kit was totally not worth it. Look at that cheap plastic thingie.

Fine it may look pretty alright on the outside but heck once you turn it over you know you've been had lar. Should have just went to Low Yatt and got some kinda over the top Burberry cover kit or something and be totally chav...=P yeah like I'd ever do something as dumb as that tho...

Anyways off to the course for another 18-holes with Yu Jin...*offers a lil prayer that I'll at least chart a decent score*

Note to self....mass starts early

2006-04-30T10:55:00.000+08:00

Okie went to church earlier as planned. Tho was only there for a grand total of 5 minutes. Basically I got too carried away with my blogging and editing of Twitch's pics that I kinda lost track of time. But in all honesty, does mass actually start so early? I mean like I got there at 9:40 or so and it was over by 9:45 =S. Oh well at least now I know...

Of Furry Feline Romances...

2006-04-30T08:43:00.000+08:00

Well considering that this blog is named after a pretty infamous Grumpugg (Grumpugg = Grumpy + Ugly...BUT Totally Adorable!), my big fat orange meowser, ie Twitch - I guess it is approporiate to post up something with his pic in it. So I give you the furry critter in my life. Twitch.

Okie this was basically when he was still barely a mth old and literally resembling an overfed tennis ball with four paws sticking out of him.

This instead, is him now indulging in his favourite past-time:: crawling into containers/boxes/bags and falling asleep in them.

Anyways, unknown to most people, Twitch is a softie at heart despite his less-than-friendly persona. So now lemme introduce you to the hot sassy persian next door who's caught Mr Fubbly Grumpugg's keen eye over the past months...

Okie honestly speaking I don't fancy persians by any measure but she can be pretty friendly at times and well, give face lar, my boy's totally into her. I mean i guess by feline standards she must be quite a looker...like check out her cam whore poses with tongue sticking out and all :P

Just drives Twitch wild....(did I mention we neutered him like when he was 6 mths old? lol)

LoL, alright alright enough with furry feline romance....

When you're out there with a smile on your face, a drink in your hand, smoke in your eyes and under the spotlight captivating your eager audiences...do you remember?
Or am I alone in my bed in the dark holding on when I should be letting go...?

Eve 6 ~ Here's to the Night

Missing London and the friends there...

2006-04-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

Was going through all my old pics and all. I don't know why but looking at old pics doesn't seem as therapeutic as it used to be. Nowadays you just tend to think about the what if's and how it could have been differently. Kinda lose perspective on what the pics capture in the first place...

You see how friends have grown up from high school days. How silly your hair used to be in college. The things you did in uni and along the way.

Then I come across a graduation day photo from London. And all the memories just came flooding in. Everything. And all I can say is that I miss London sorely. Not just cause of the separation after being there for practically 3 entire years but the people I left behind, the friends.

I wouldn't be the same person I am now if I never met you guys. And even now after all we've been through we're still there for each other (though we still hardly ever listen to each other). Its funny. How different we are individually but how well we click as a group. Its sweet that we look out for each other even though we know we may not know the entire truth or what's actually going on. How we've got each others back covered regardless. Its nice to know that everyone's still going to be there for each other when the storm blows over.

Trying to let go and move on but everything around me just reminds me of you...

Guess who's back?

2006-04-28T04:32:00.000+08:00

Well I'm back on the blogging scene. After sporadic attempts at it throughout the past few years, this might actually be the one that sticks around for a while. (Meaning it'll at least last 4, 5 mths? half a year? a year?) Well let's try to be optimistic at least.

We'll give 2006 a shot and see if things turn out better. Gotta learn how to get off my butt and back on to my feet. Quick summary of recent and current issues plaguing my simple life at the moment:

Still am jobless after graduating some 9 / 10 mths ago
Am decidedly more aware of myself - internally & externally. Thanks to some rather unfortunate/fortunate events depending on how you wanna look at it
Have set some clear cut goals to achieve by the end of the year. All possible given the correct motivation.

Well that's a very brief summary. I'm sure I'll elaborate more on them as time comes and goes but I'll leave things as it is for now. It is half past 4 in the morning and any sane person should be dreaming of rolling hills and bouncy sheep at the moment unlike moi. Not too surprised tho cause my sleep clock's been all wonky for the past 2 weeks plus or so. Surprisingly I've been surviving on average 4-5 hours of sleep a day for this whole time. Think the only time I got proper sleep (ie > 6 hrs)was after golf that day when I walked the whole 18 holes of the course. Don't think I'll do that again tho, ambitious as I am about exercising more now :P

Sigh, we all fall down in order to learn how to get back up again...