Time to find myself...

Alright first of all need to get it out to those who've been by my side all this while::

1. The Flat #9 girls (Caryn, Von, Bird, Su) :: Thanks for being there when I needed you all the most lar.
2. My coffee buddy Suef :: Woman you by far definitely had to put up with all my moppey-ness and thanks for being impartial and helping me realise stuff bout myself and everything.
3. Jer Wei & Sandra :: Sorry been ffk-ing you all a lot but thanks for still trying to get me out and cheer me up and stuff

Kay, guess with that done with I should start picking up the pieces and getting my butt off the floor. High time I woke up to reality that its time to move on lar hard as it'll be. No point holding grudges or regrets over what ifs and what nots.Was an eventful time splashed with some of the best times in my life and the lowest moments too. Just gotta take it all and bundle it up, keep it somewhere safe and learn from everything. Time to change to be a better person and keep myself on the straight. Choosing one dream after another and then ending up with neither definitely was a sobering experience. Time to get the gears moving again and put everything aside. Need to concentrate on what I have to get done now::

1. Get a job started.
2. Work towards that job you want.
3. Study for the CFA.

Gonna institute a daily routine from now on. Today was a trial test and didn't really work out too well. 1 hour on the treadmill followed by 20 so laps in the pool and about 200 crunches really zonked me out. Was supposed to study and work in the afternoon but was just way too drained. So here's the new plan, which will begin in t-minus 1.5 hrs::

1. Wake up by 8:45am everyday
2. Hit the gym (treadmill 30mins, 10-15 laps in the pool, 100 crunches) *plus 40 crunches before showers
3. Lunch at home
4. Job Apps/CFA studying at Starbucks (seem to be so much more productive there)
5. Dinner
6. Coffee or drinks with friends
7. Back to bed by 2am latest

Basically gonna run on this daily routine everyday and interject golf in between. Like say 2 days of the routine followed by a day at the driving range followed by 1 day routine followed by 18 holes at the course. Repeat over the course of the next 4 mths.

Gonna keep myself as occupied as I can. Really does keep everything off my mind at times. As you can see trying to shape up and not be a "Dom" story ie. from buffboy to urm....not so buff-boy? (lol sorry Dom and Von :D) Either way gotta get in shape before the damn PJ half-marathon thingie in June. Think I'll die anyway. 22km...no joke weh. Bloody Yang Jerng somehow got me into this. Hmm maybe should consider the quarter-marathon instead and do the 10km. Sounds more do-able lol. Anyways thats all for now. See ya all at the other end of the tunnel after everything's done and over with....

Need to be more optimistic, need to believe in myself again...