Say hello to fucked up bodyclocks

Seems like a common occurrence. Been running on 48 hour days recently with 12 hr sleeps between. Guess I somewhat know how a medic feels now. But its all good. Would be better if I was more productive of course :P But things are looking up. Been pretty much occupied thinking bout my career options and what not. Offers to delay and interviews to rush. But most importantly, I have a 45 minute case study of a technical business plan to prep for. Just got the email from HK and they have FINALLY set the assessment date. So I've got about 3 days to prep everything and brush up on my accounting & finance. Sigh. Not putting too much hope in this one tho eventhough I'm gonna be working my butt off for it. Still is pretty much a long shot and the other potentials seem more feasible. But heck I've been called in so might as well make the best of it. Hopefully what I learnt from the Bain experience will help me pull through to the next round. *crosses fingers*

 

Alrighteys then, really should stock up on a couple things. Few frivolous things I need to get in the meantime::

• A nice crystal whisky glass.
• Ice cube trays...my household has gotta be the only one in the world without cube trays :S
• Some kinda cabinet for my growing bottle collection

Yeah my parents think I'm turning into an alkie. Heck if they only knew how much I spend on coffee instead. Sick of being a leech on the parental units. Need a job. NOW. So much crap to settle first tho. Am annoyed. Have not had my caffeine dosage for the day. Hmmm to go to Starbucks now or not?

"If there is no struggle, there is no progress." ~ Frederick Douglass

U2 ~ In the Name of Love

The League of Dysfunctional Bitches/Bastards (TLDBs)

In lieu with the whole comic book based movies, I present The League of Dysfunctional Bitches/Bastards to commemorate mths/yrs of endless training in pursuit of perfection within our own individual arts...

 

HONORARY MEMBERS::

 

Sue Fern ~ Substance Abuse Bitch

Panadol is the world's greatest creation

 

Caryn ~ Alkie Party Bitch

What's a party without drinks, smokes and Caryn?

 

Yvonne ~ Vain Shopaholic Bitch

I'm so faaaaaaaaat........ooooohhhh Prada!

 

Barry ~ Fat Horny Bastard

*Struts around in a fireman's costume* There's a fire in my pants to put out!

 

Chris ~ Overexcited Think He's So Cute Wanna Get Everybody Drunk Bastard

Drink! Drink! Dwwwwinnnk!

 

Dominic ~ I'm Too Busy For Anyone Except Vain Shopaholic Bitch - Bastard (used to be Buff Boy)

SiMiSai!

 

Justin ~ Caffeinated Aggro Bastard

Where the fuck is my Americano?

 

To the rest of the Londoners who have yet to join the LEAGUE OF DYSFUNCTIONAL BITCHES/BASTARDS. We are currently recruiting. To those who have yet to be named, we couldn't come up with a Dysfunctional name best suited for thee (ie Su Lyn, Brenda, Lyn, etc etc) Maybe you guys aren't dysfunctional enough I guess lol.

 

Kudos to Substance Abuse Bitch for creative input under the influence of painkillers and caffeine.

 

"Avoid fruits and nuts. You are what you eat." ~ Anonymous

 

Aerosmith ~ Spiderman

Of Lifelines and a Dreamer's woes

Sometimes in the maelstrom that we come to know as life, we get second chances to turn things around. Okie sometimes we're luckier than we should be and get more than just one or 2 chances, but multiple opportunities over a period of time. I know cause I've been lucky enough to be one of those guys. Everything has been pretty bleak recently in terms of future outlook and what not, but now, right now, after wasting many, many, maaaaaany lifelines thrown at me, I have another one dangling tantalizingly in front of my eyes, just beyond reach.

 

Now the question that comes to mind is how do I go about this. Do you play it safe and avoid the tempting carrot on a stick and just look at a longer term and much more guaranteed outcome, or reach out and try to grasp that damn vegetable? Its not entirely out of reach you see. Its just a matter of self belief and effort. But then you constantly question your own abilities due to the past failures and wonder if you truly are capable of handling it. The prize is immense. That's to say the least. The reward would be a dream fulfilled - or at least a major milestone step in the right direction. Do you bring yourself to stand once again and put hope in it? Is the fear of failure too great to handle should it happen again? Its not entirely out of the question you see. Some sorta demented Sophie's choice dilemma.

 

Deep down I know that in comparison, I might not be the best suited. In truth, I might not have what it takes. You gotta be practical to a point after going through what I've been through. Then again you also consider the other factors. The growth achieved over that period. The experience and knowledge you have now which you wish you had earlier. Would it be different this time around? Would you actually be able to nibble at that carrot after all?

 

Dreams are hard to let go. Or at least the ones you've had planned for so long in your life. But some dreams are mere fairy tales and you wonder when you'd wake up to reality. But given this chance right now, I honestly feel that to quit now and just walk away, and do what I detest yet practise a lot....play it safe, would be a crime to myself in all senses. It's not who I am. I can't let this chance pass me by. Not again. I'd think I'd be even worse off knowing I didn't try rather than falling down again. After all, I've bounced right back up from my ass so many times *sigh* it can't be all too different from the previous times.

 

Its a do or die situation now. Take that step across the ledge and do what you have to do. Do it smart. Don't let go of what you have now and reach for what you want to get. In a banker's phrase:: Hedge all your bets. If it goes wrong at least I won't lose out too much but, BUT....if it works out, GODDAMN!! So that's that. It's pretty much decided now I guess. We do what we have to do. Just go for it. And make sure you put every effort in it. Don't repeat the same old mistakes. Improvise. Grow from within and most of all, don't be afraid to ask for help. Pride - the all-consuming weakness - is something that has to be harnessed effectively. Pride in yourself and your abilities without being over-confident. Without losing track of what needs to be done.

 

It is time. It is time to get going again. One last chance for something you've always wanted. One last bloody chance. Can't waste it. Not for anyone or anything. This is mine. I want it. I wanna be able to look myself in the mirror and be grateful for everything. I want this. I can have this. I'm taking it...

 

"A minute's success pays the failure of years" ~ Robert Browning

 

Gloria Gaynor ~ I Will Survive

:)

Finally... we get to turn the leaf over for real now and get the ball rolling again. Feels like a boulder's been lifted from my shoulders. Feels strange.

Caryn :: Thanks for being so patient. I know its tough for you considering your lack of that virtue. Lol But I've always enjoyed your company despite our constant cat fights wherever we are. Don't do the masters lar...come back KL work here for a while keep me and Suef company. :)




Yvonne:: You prolly dispensed the most in comfort and you're always there to change the topic be it you're stressed or you're fat again....selfish hippo :) Can't express my appreciation for the past years of friendship. Say hi to ex-buff boy for me. Tell him I'm taking over the title now *grin*

Bird:: For always trying to keep my chin up. I'm there for you too babes. And no, you don't look like a "goddamn fucking ball". :)


Suef:: Hey, seriously you deserve the BIGGEST thanks. You were there with me since the start (prolly cause you were my coffee buddy and you're the only one in KL from the main group). Don't know how to say thanks any much more for just listening and straightening me out. Used to be so darn practical and coldly logical in my thought processes. Thanks for at least restoring some of that back.


Cham:: Woman get your kindergarten teacher ass back here cause I hardly hear from you and you used to keep things calm for us all.


Jer Wei:: Dude thanks for just being there when I had to get out and meet new people. Dude thanks for being a true friend lar all these years. What's it now? 10 years +?


Sandra:: Darling you just have a way of turning a frown upside down lar in that weird aloof klutzy fashion of yours. Take care in HK yah and bloody heck make sure Chester doesn't think I'm after you or something hahaha


Leonie:: Hey woman, you've been solid lar. Always around at the weirdest hours to talk about everything from crap to bullshit and giving pointers to each other on workout sessions. LoL man, come back quick cause Barry and me need a new drinking buddy.


Brenda:: You practically disappeared after graduation and reappeared again. Woman your no-nonsense no-bullshit ways have been sorely missed. Can always count on you to give me a sobering up. Damn woman I miss you and your company at Gala :P


Barry:: Dude whats up with UOB lar? They've been keeping you too tightly chained to your desk. Its always guaranteed a blast with this big bear out for drinks.

Wei Wen & Edwin:: Dudes, mahjong has never been so therapeutic.

May Yee:: Woman, even though we get caught up in our own worlds and we hardly speak for long moments at a time, you're always the same person who cares for me in the end. I know I haven't been really there for you but man I'm gonna be that same buddy a few years back. Heck of a friend who's always there when you need her.


Chia Huei:: You're the one who somehow just popped in and started talking to me about everything and anything under the sun. We have more in common than I ever imagined and damn going on and on about our individual cases just makes me feel that I'm not alone out there. Get your butt back from Beijing. Need to incorporate you into my coffee sessions, tho you don't drink coffee lol


And finally, I know I know everyone's prolly gonna let out a collective groan/sigh/chuckle, but....

Thank you to my god damn fat cat Twitch. Man you have no idea how many times I've just picked him up when he's fast asleep and squished him. Yes I love my orange furball dearly. Call me gay for all I care. But heck I love my cat. He makes me calm tho he scratches and bites. :P












Thanks guys...all of you


"My father always used to say that when you die, if you've got five real friends, then you've had a great life." ~ Lee Iacocca

Thirsty Merc ~ Someday, Someday

Velvet again...

First of all, thank god for 24/7 Starbucks on Fridays & Saturdays. So needed that americano despite it being 4:45 am. Had a very interesting night to say the least. Meeting new people and all. Velvet was playing really good music for some flukish reason. Usually it gets a lil too random on Saturday nights but the DJ kinda spun things right this time around. That being said didn't wanna drink so much cause it wasn't even my normal batch of friends' table. Spent most of the night hopping from one table to another to another (Razlan to Johan to TJ to Ben). Felt kinda bad cause everytime I appeared at one table someone would push a drink in my face and I'd be drinking and then when I offer to chip in for the bottles everyone just tells me to drink...so yeah. Pai she weh. I know how irritating free-loaders can be at clubs. So must make it a point to get those guys drinks next time I see them. Which most prolly will be at Velvet again next Fri or Sat. Bloody permanent fixtures there on weekends these guys. (Shit just realised I didn't chip in at SevenAteNine too....crap sorry Barry, Edwin, Yu Jin!) Later yum cha on me lar...

 

Left Velvet pretty early to be honest around 2ish but ended up going over to Eugene's place in Taman Seputeh. Some new gated community over there called Seputeh Heights methinks. Have to admit, he's got one heck of a crib. Stayed there just chilling out, having coke light lol and makaning. Was pretty chilled out and all but I guess felt kinda awkward after a bit cause we just got to know these guys at the club. Well minus Yoong Yue but I never really was close to him before and it was sporadic meetings throughout the past 10 years. But he's cool and so are the rest of em so they made us feel right in and all. All in all a pretty cool bunch. Still digging his crib...fark MTV Cribs Malaysia anyone? Got a few places in mind...lol

 

Well after that had to ferry the guys and girls home around PJ and that's where I got my coffee call. After passing by this HUGE crash at Phileo Damansara. Think there were like 3 cars involved in total. They took out the centre barrier and stuff and there were tons of gawkers and toll trucks and what not clogging the road. Think two of the cars were turtled and the wheels were bloody on my side of the road. Was pretty shocking. And me going....yeah okie I need coffee. :P Don't get whats up with all the gawkers tho. I had to slow down just to squeeze past everybody and its like a bloody 4 lane highway too dumbasses. That being said luckily I wasn't carrying too much speed cause it was over a righ hook bend totally covering my vision. Ah well, people drink and drive. Some just drink too much and drive. Some just can't drive period. You combine part B + C and you get BYEBYE and sure CRASH. Okie that was my lame contribution off the day. But heck I just woke up...

 

"An alchoholic is someone you don't like who drinks just as much as you" ~ Dylan Thomas

 

Red Hot Chilli Peppers ~ By The Way

Colourblind

I am stressed. For the first time I have too many "feasible" options to consider. And the worst part is I don't have time to fully analyze each one of em and pursue them. So pretty much fucked in all senses. Shall be interesting to see what pans out in the end.

 

On the other side of things, everything's pretty much hunky dory. Came across this line in a header :: "I am folded, unfolded, and unfolding". It was so bloody familiar for some reason. And then it hit me, its a line from Colourblind from Counting Crows. Its an awesome song. You guys prolly wouldn't know it by its name but its the song from Cruel Intentions. I remember playing it over and over again in highschool and again in first year as LSE in the Holborn halls lol. Was actually contemplating performing it for MSS Nite but me and Jason ended up playing With or Without You and Belaian Jiwa instead. Its a really sedated kinda chilled out song. Might be a bit depressing depending on the state you're in but definitely worth a listen if you haven't heard it before. Lol think the only reason why I was so into the song last time was cause it was simple to play and one of the only songs I could sing to at the same time. For those who know me, my vocal capabilities are limited....fine they are pretty much non-existent. Anyways, here's the song....

 

Counting Crows ~ Colourblind

 

I am colourblind

Coffee black and egg white

Pull me out from inside

I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am ... taffy-stuck and tongue-tied

Stuttered shook and uptight

Pull me out from inside

I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am ... fine

 

I am covered in skin

No one gets to come in

Pull me out from inside

I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding, I am ... colourblind

Coffee black and egg white

Pull me out from inside

I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am ... fine

I am fine

I am fine...

 

 

"The best way of predicting a future is to invent it" ~ Alan Kay

 

Shawn Mullins ~ Lullaby

Janie's Got a Gun

Well I'm in a weird sorta mood today. Have been a tad annoyed recently at certain things bout my 2nd home, ie Starbucks. I have a few things I want rectified there namely and they are (in order of importance to me...) ::

1. To increase the amount of power points available for laptop users
2. Do something bout the a/c cause its too bloody cold inside at times (I know I know this coming from someone who spent 3 years in London with its gloomy weather. But hey I've been back in KL for almost a year now -which is kinda sad but that's another blog for another day- and I have very nicely readjusted back to the weather here.)
3. Get bigger tables cause I can't fit all my crap on one to do my work and all.

Chances are slim that this will happen anytime soon (if ever) but one can only hope right?

Anyways not much new with me. Got a couple interviews, more masters offers, waiting for more interviews and better prospects to reply. Currently I think top of the list would be the GE FMP prog and the HK internship but chances for the HK one is slight to none after the phone interview. GE will only come back to me mid june to mid july earliest so that kinda eliminates waiting for it. Prolly will start something first and if it does happen (ie I get an interview and pass all the same ol' tests and all and play monkey....jump monkey jump!) I'll prolly just hand in my 2 wks notice with whoever I'm with lar. Deferring all my masters offers till March next year as backup. No point wasting the application fees I guess.

Had a great time at Ghetto Heaven last Friday night given all circumstances. I know a lot of peeps were pretty annoyed at certain things happening that night and didn't really quite let loose. Know how it sucks to be that way when you're out partying so I sympathize but heck, I had a blast so its all good for the moment. This Friday night supposed to check out SevenEightNine (7,8,9) with the gang. Been there once for coffee in the afternoon right before I was killed in my Bain & Co case study (sigh soooooo close). Pretty nice place at the Ascott. Might be interesting to see how it'll be like at night. Tho I prolly won't be able to drink or stay too late cause I have an interview the next morning at 10. Sigh that was really bad timing but heck it I'm still gonna go methinks. Just gonna be having OJ the whole night I guess (lifts a glass of OJ to my fellow non-drinker in London) Nick get your chingchong ass back in KL. Need more golf kakis.

So far the daily routines have been holding up. Which is good. And they've already started to show results which is unexpectedly sooner than imagined but nonetheless GREAT! Hmmm question now is can I make it for that beach holiday at Perhentian end of this mth?

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out." ~ Walter Winchell

Aerosmith ~ Janie's Got a Gun

My 2nd and 3rd homes...

For the past couple of weeks I have found a place to call my second home. Its not a new place or anything fancy or what not. It just has everything I need at the moment to survive. Ample space, plush sofas, tables, power points and wireless broadband for free and of course, coffee....lots of it.

 

Basically been going to Starbucks at Plaza Mt Kiara pretty religiously everyday in the afternoons or late at nights on Fridays and Saturdays (they're ope 24/7 on those days and eve of Public hols). The coffee intake is an addiction I don't think I can kick off. Prolly would be much harder to quit than smokes. Which btw the process of quitting exactly that is more costly than expected. I have been going through  multiple packs of chewing gum on a daily basis to break the habit. Seems to be working so far. Think tomm I shall pay a visit to Carrefour or something and buy gum in bulk...

 

And then there's also my 3rd home which is closer to home than anywhere else. Okie fine its just downstairs. My apartment's gym and pool area. Been a regular visitor there every morning. If you're there at 7:30am you're gonna have to wait your turn for the treadmill my friend...Sigh my life seems pretty mundane. Sleep early, wake up, go to the gym, jump in the pool, take a shower, catch up on news and what not, have lunch, go to starbucks, study, apps, get pissed off at irritating international school kids, go home have dinner, exercise a lil more in my room, shower, back to work or if I'm up for it go meet the guys for coffee(again)/mahjong/or a drink, come back, feed Twitch, sleep....and repeat the next day. Need to interject some random-ness into this....hence the blogging and the occasional drive around neighbourhoods in the middle of the night(have not been stopped by random housing area patrols or police cars yet *touchwood*).

 

My life right now in a nutshell....

 

"Accept that somedays you're the pigeon and that somedays you're the statue" ~ Scott Adams

 

Alanis Morissette ~ You Learn

 

Don't you all just hate power cuts?

Had a long workout session in the gym again trying out some new workout routine I got from online. Bloody hell seemed so simple at the start. Like 6 different motions, 10 reps X 1 set only each. Supposedly will give you washboard abs in under 6 mths. I mean come on, how believable can that be....60 reps in total. Crap right? So I was thinking, they seem like plausible steps but under 6 mths? Maybe if I crank up the sets like say to 3 sets of 10 reps each. Well....as with all other brilliant ideas. You come to realize that "professionals" tend to be correct. After like the second motion and 60 crunches later I was lying on the floor half dead. And the genius in me had an even more extensive 30 mins on the treadmill covering 5 km. So yes, saying I was pooped was putting it lightly.

 

But in the pursuit of vanity and physical perfection, we dig deep and bring out a part of yourself you never knew you had....the mirror. Wonders of nature how the sight of yourself vs what you used to be can do to motivate you. So I somehow managed to finish the other motions (1set of 10 reps each this time smarty pants) and even did my obligatory laps in the pool. Am pleased. Am also pooped. But still couldn't sleep. Work beckons...

 

So went to Starbucks. Saw the same barristas, the same office workers, the same couples, the same slacker GIS/Mt Kiara International school kids. Sat my ass down at 11am and kept it there till 5pm. Only problem was Plaza Mt Kiara was having scheduled power maintenance, which I didn't know of earlier, and there were like pretty frequent power cuts. Some of them lasting quite long. Was BLOODY irritating lar. Halfway doing online apps and then a power cut kills the wireless connection and you lose 20-30 minutes of hardwork on the stupid online forms. But still managed to get a lot done and had some very timely phonecalls to provide me with good news. Looks like I have more things lined up to prepare for and do in the coming week. But it's better than sitting at home and twiddling my toes I guess. All in all its good that I've started this mundane routine and all. Being pretty disciplined with the apps and studying and especially the workout sessions too. Ah well, guess its enough procrastination for now and back to studying....bloody stupid Ethics and Professional Codes...so dry and some so obvious.  Oh well back to the grind...

 

And the good news still continues, Suef just coincidentally called and told me that I might be called in for another interview soon. Hmmm, now there's a lot on my plate to consider. In any case, interviews don't necessarily translate into job offers. Something learnt from many many manyyyyyyy past experiences. DAMN YOU BAIN & CO SINGAPORE....IT WAS JUST ONEEEEEEEE BAD DAY! 

 

Okie okie no more distractions tonight......study time.

 

"Men talk of killing time, while time quietly kills them." ~ Dion Boucicault

 

John Mayer ~ Man on the Side

Productive Day and Puppies!

Well today was pretty productive to say the least. Got a lot done despite not waking up in time for church. Woke up at 9am. Figured by the time I got ready and all and got there it'll be 9:45 like last week and I'd just catch the last 5 minutes so no real motivation to go. Will make it a point to sleep earlier next Sat so I'll wake up earlier on Sun morn.

So instead I spent extra time in the gym and in the pool. Working out really is addictive. Kinda clears the mind and soul with no negative side-effects....well none that I've experienced so far. *touch wood* Went to Starbucks later on in the day to hit the apps and study material. Actually spent 3 flat hours not moving from that chair and concentrating on everything. Damn like I couldn't even do that when I was at LSE. Only ever got up to use the loo and buy coffee. Guess a sense of desperation is kinda motivating me. Which brings me to believe I can get back what I had 6 / 7 years ago...

1. The motivation, drive and hunger to get things done
2. My six-pack abs back!!! (almost there..give it till mid June hopefully at this rate...but methinks sometime in July is more realistic)

Just gotta keep my eyes on the ball and keep at it.

Now okie, enough with the boring recap and stuff. Here's pics from yesterday from the petshop in IKEA. No kitties cause they were all hiding in their cubicles. But there were some really cute puppies. I know I sound like a girl but heck it, they are cute OK.

The white Schnauzer was quite active but just simply refused to look at the cam. Whenever I put up the cam he'd look away and look back straight at me when I put it down. Reminds me a lil' of Twitch and my neighbour's kids, how he just teases them.

At least the pommie bothered posing...somewhat I guess.

Next was by far the most expensive puppy I've seen in KL lar. RM3,480. Gives you...mini-Shinju. Well for those who don't know Shinju, he's this oversized Melbourne-Malamute I got the chance to meet on a few occasions when I was over in Melbourne. Great dog but definitely wouldn't wanna be on the bad side of him. Huge dog...nuff said. Anyways mini-Shinju was just concussed the whole time.

And so were these guys. I swear puppies and kittens just love sleeping in piles of each other.

And here's one random insertion. A quote for my Canadian buddy, Steven, in London::

"Canadians are Americans with no Disneyland" ~ Margaret Mahy

LoL, I don't know but that just cracked me up. I mean like what are they talking abut huh Steve? =P

Guster ~ Two Points for Honesty

Confused

Honestly, I guess I have nothing to complain about. Happy that things are working out so soon for you, that you're able to take it on the chin and keep your head up and live the life you wanted. Yet, can't help feeling sad about it all as well...

 

I know I'm not supposed to be mopey anymore...I know...but I am...

Golf, golf and more golf

So here's the deal, I admit it. I'm a bloody noob on the golf course. But that being said, sometimes the odd days do come along and I turn into super "kai" golfer. Like days where I can save par on a par 3 after tee-ing off into the pond. One amazing chip shot from the drop zone 70 metres away and holed it. Then there are the 20 footer puts to score birdie or save par and the occasional 100 metre chips to a couple inches from the cup.

Today however, was not one of those days. Very far from it if I may say so. So far that we decided to destroy all evidence of our scores as not to embarrass ourselves in the clubhouse should someone pick up our scorecard. So instead of being all grumpy and frustrated on the golf course, Yu Jin (my golfing buddy ie caddy boy or Tiger One depending on his days) and I have come up with a solution. It's very simple as you can see. If you're gonna be playing like a headless chicken on the golf course. The least you can do is look good doing it. Hence ::



I swear we had nothing better to do. I mean like 2 guys constantly stuck behind slow players combined with the fact that we were playing like crap...well we had to entertain ourselves somewhat lar har.

Note to self:: Next time bring an ice-box filled with beer. Perfect alibi for crappy shots. I mean like come on man if I can't see straight, walk straight or keep the buggy on the track, what makes you think I'm gonna hit straight right?

Time to find myself...

Alright first of all need to get it out to those who've been by my side all this while::

1. The Flat #9 girls (Caryn, Von, Bird, Su) :: Thanks for being there when I needed you all the most lar.
2. My coffee buddy Suef :: Woman you by far definitely had to put up with all my moppey-ness and thanks for being impartial and helping me realise stuff bout myself and everything.
3. Jer Wei & Sandra :: Sorry been ffk-ing you all a lot but thanks for still trying to get me out and cheer me up and stuff

Kay, guess with that done with I should start picking up the pieces and getting my butt off the floor. High time I woke up to reality that its time to move on lar hard as it'll be. No point holding grudges or regrets over what ifs and what nots.Was an eventful time splashed with some of the best times in my life and the lowest moments too. Just gotta take it all and bundle it up, keep it somewhere safe and learn from everything. Time to change to be a better person and keep myself on the straight. Choosing one dream after another and then ending up with neither definitely was a sobering experience. Time to get the gears moving again and put everything aside. Need to concentrate on what I have to get done now::

1. Get a job started.
2. Work towards that job you want.
3. Study for the CFA.

Gonna institute a daily routine from now on. Today was a trial test and didn't really work out too well. 1 hour on the treadmill followed by 20 so laps in the pool and about 200 crunches really zonked me out. Was supposed to study and work in the afternoon but was just way too drained. So here's the new plan, which will begin in t-minus 1.5 hrs::

1. Wake up by 8:45am everyday
2. Hit the gym (treadmill 30mins, 10-15 laps in the pool, 100 crunches) *plus 40 crunches before showers
3. Lunch at home
4. Job Apps/CFA studying at Starbucks (seem to be so much more productive there)
5. Dinner
6. Coffee or drinks with friends
7. Back to bed by 2am latest

Basically gonna run on this daily routine everyday and interject golf in between. Like say 2 days of the routine followed by a day at the driving range followed by 1 day routine followed by 18 holes at the course. Repeat over the course of the next 4 mths.

Gonna keep myself as occupied as I can. Really does keep everything off my mind at times. As you can see trying to shape up and not be a "Dom" story ie. from buffboy to urm....not so buff-boy? (lol sorry Dom and Von :D) Either way gotta get in shape before the damn PJ half-marathon thingie in June. Think I'll die anyway. 22km...no joke weh. Bloody Yang Jerng somehow got me into this. Hmm maybe should consider the quarter-marathon instead and do the 10km. Sounds more do-able lol. Anyways thats all for now. See ya all at the other end of the tunnel after everything's done and over with....

Need to be more optimistic, need to believe in myself again...

Soul Asylum - Runaway Train

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

 

What do I do now...?

The Geek Inside...

Here's something bout me most people don't know::

1) I absolutely adore techie geekie digital stuff
2) I am actually pretty crappy with computer equipment despite my love for it

In any case, here's whats been keeping me sane for the past 2 weeks plus or so...







I swear that paying Dell an extra RM118 for that "Charcoal Black" colour kit was totally not worth it. Look at that cheap plastic thingie.





Fine it may look pretty alright on the outside but heck once you turn it over you know you've been had lar. Should have just went to Low Yatt and got some kinda over the top Burberry cover kit or something and be totally chav...=P yeah like I'd ever do something as dumb as that tho...

Anyways off to the course for another 18-holes with Yu Jin...*offers a lil prayer that I'll at least chart a decent score*